Just Something ....

Friendship ~

2012-01-29T01:23:00.001Z

Recently some things had happen that causes a friendship bond to break. Well although the friendship wasn't a long one but is the new friend that u made in a new place. We stay under the same roof, travel around Europe together, overall had a lot of good times together.
It is so sad to lose a friend over money matters. It's not like we are very poor since our parents can afford our overseas education. Just because of a few thousand bucks you lose a couple of friends and most importantly the trust of people to you.
Was it worth it? You know that we won't have that kind of trust to you anymore and most probably others too, Because we won't let our friends face the problem that we faced.
Well I can't blame all the problem on you, because you are just following what your mom told you to do. But what I can't accept is that you didn't do anything and just plainly follow despite you know is not right.
Hmm well is just too sad to lose a friend in this way. Now I finally understand why people say 'talk money hurt feelings' ..

Ciaoz

Life~

2011-11-14T02:10:00.001Z

Hmm it's been so long since I last post, well I actually dun have much things to update since my life is so bored. But now, smth big has happen! I guess is another obstacle that I have to break thru in order to learn my lesson in life.

Well the story is as follow:
I have a friend, A which has moved into a place with me and two other friends but now A suddenly decides to go other place to study and leave us. Well the problems are as follow:
1) A still have half a yr rent to pay and feels that has no obligation to pay
2) V can't do anything legally also because the contract is under the 3 of us but A is not in it ( reason being: A is not a student and wants to avoid paying tax so A ask us to help)
3) If A doesn't pay it's part, v will need to pay extra £600 each which is quite a lot

So what can I do?? In the first place A is the one that ask us to moved into a house so that A can avoid the tax but now A is leaving us alone with all these shit. Does this person still has its moral conscious? Responsibility? Care about other people? Or people are just selfish, only care about their own benefits? What is trust? Friendship? means anymore? Is this world that corrupted already?

I have so many question but no answer. Should I not believe I friendship anymore after the age of 21 like what hh said? Those times that v spend together means nth to A?? The thing is A has choice; Manchester offer the same thing as London, there's no saying that if no Malaysian go to the center in Manchester means it is not good this is so ridiculous. I'm so sad and confused, people always say people change thru time but y does it has to change to be more selfish? I thought I knew this person, but in the end seems like I dunno this person at all.

So in conclusion, £600 can buy me a lesson; that is never to think that you know a person bcos ppl change and in the end it is urself that will get hurt bcos of ur kindness. I have lost faith in humanity, never to trust people especially stuff regarding money.

That's all for today then. Phew complaining here sure makes me feel. better and makes me forever remember my lesson as well. Also this can also teach my fellow blog followers a lesson, hope you guys won't have to face this type of problem in the future.

Ciaoz n take care.

It's Been A While~

2011-04-24T05:06:00.002+01:00

Hmm, lately been quite busy studying and doing assignments so don't really have time to update this blog.. Well to tell the truth i dont have much interesting stuff to update also, as life had been boring and repetitive.. The only new thing is that i'm going to graduate soon and got a bf.. hehe I'm so freaking sure that i'll miss this university life (relax and chill, have fun and travel.. only hate assignment due period and exam period, Haha)

I'm 21 this year and my plan is to study ACCA for another then only go and find a job and work.. By that time i'm just 22, sometimes i feel like continue study for the rest of my life so that i can enjoy for a longer time, but i know this is quite impossible.. Working will be a new chapter in my life for sure, so i must complete this chapter (studying) with as much fun and laughter as possible because i knew i'm going to need it to remind me the good times that i had and i hope it will get me through the hard times in the coming futures.. hehe

Struggling to get 1st class on my final exam, dont want to disappoint my parents and also myself as they spend lotsss of money sending me here for a better education and learn much experience living in overseas.. I know i'm not stupid, so i just need to work this lazy ass and study more.. and hopefully i can do it, i believe that if I tried my best; my parents will be satisfied and i will have no regrets for the rest of my life..

okay.. gonna sleep now, nights to me; morning to those of you who r in Malaysia.. Good luck to those who r having exams too..

Ciaoz

中间~

2011-01-10T00:19:00.003Z

为什么要执著于寻找你爱的人，而不把机会让给爱自己的人呢？

是应该改变观念了，或许感情是可以培养出来的...

updates

2011-01-06T01:08:00.002Z

Aiks seems like very long didn't post anything here.. Haha blame the assignments because i seriously don't feel like typing anymore after typing so many words for the assignments.. hehe well life has begun to bored me again, nth special happen lately. Except that today i had a looonnggg chat with hh cos both of us just have too many minutes to waste, and a small chat with kw.. I miss the time when v can always hang out and "blow water" together.. lol

Well both of them reminds me that i just have around 5 months of uni life left, aiks i will seriously miss the time in Uni, especially in UK cos it's just so relax and fun~ Planning to study ACCA, conquer the last 5 papers and hopefully get a job then.. Hmm why must time passes so fast?? I wish i could just stay in my high school life and enjoy life to the most!!

I also figured out that i hardly keep in touch with all my friends in Malaysia anymore, the last summer break i went back was 80% of the time doing work while just 20% of the time to spend with others (plus u know that i'm lazy, so the 20% will have to take of 10% for sleeping and lazying around time.. LOL) Shit man, i sure hope u guys don't forget me, sobs~

Alrite i'll stop here, time to sleep~

Ciaoz and nitez

Lesson Learn

2010-12-21T01:36:00.002Z

"Never to expect anything from anyone for free"

Damn the people that made me learn this, where did all the good people went? Hmm maybe die of extinction. Aiks, Selfish is what i must learn, from now on; don't expect me to tell you anything since you never did.

I hate people keeping things from me, c'mon even if you want to surprise people you do it secretly but you just manage to pissed me off. Great !

Imma going to play boxing with my xbox kinect to release my anger.. Whee~

Ciaoz

Finally ~

2010-11-08T20:52:00.002Z

Hehe i know i've been quite lazy for some time, but don't blame me for not updating my blog ok cuz i really dun have anything to blog about.

As you know, this is my final year and there are so many things that i need to handle !!

1. STUDY (ofcos rite!!!)

2. JOB ( if i can get one, just got rejected from PWC Ireland, sobs)

3. Malaysian Society ( this is causing super alot of problem and takes up alot of my time and energy)

4. Some other relationship problems.. Hmm this can just leave it aside 1st

Life really will get harder as you grow older huh.. Why can't we enjoy life like we used to? To hell with all these problems!! now i miss Bon Jovi's song "It's My Life":

~It's my life

It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever

I just wanna live while I'm alive ~

Well i'm going to practice this more often!! Yeah and make myself more happy while i still can enjoy the luxury of studying.. hehe

Hmm y r overseas jobs so hard to get?? With all the crazy shit application form to fill it and so many stage to pass until you can even get an interview.. What's wrong with the economy? Why they need to make it so hard for people to get a job and increase the unemployment rate?

Another thing is about my relationship.. Hmm is not getting any better.. The perfect song that can describe my situation now is 爱我的人和我爱的人:

爱我的人为我痴心不悔

我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲

在乎的人始终不对

谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切

我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎

爱与被爱同样受罪

为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

Haha ok la maybe not that dramatic but is something liddat la LOL.. hehe

Ok la update until here la.. hehe

Ciaoz

I'm Back!!

2010-10-02T01:22:00.003+01:00

Haha people i'm back in UK, this also means that i'll continue my Monthly Post in my blog.. LOL

You know sometimes life has a lot of questions that just cant be answered.. Hmm that bothers me a lot in these few days, damn that feeling man.. 如果可以i wish i dont need to feel that anymore, i wish all of the questions and problems can just solved itself..

I wish i can be very brave and just go and face the problem, but no, in fact i'm avoiding it (actually is running away from it) .. When did i turn into this?? How i wish all these problems does not exist and today someone in somewhere reminds me of something that happen quite some time ago.

I have tons of questions but NO answer at all.. WTF is this man?? i think i'm better off just be a nerd and focus on my final year study, it might make my life better and less complicated.. You know what people just like to mess up your calm and peaceful life you know.. Damn those people and please stay away from me cuz i'm so fed up and giving up making up to it anymore !!

oh.. i feel better now, just randomly express all my feelings out in this post.. hehe

Ciaoz..

updates

2010-08-15T16:30:00.003+01:00

Some of you guys who know me well might know that i'm not actually those people who are very sentimental and stuff like that. Well coming back to M'sia, makes me think a lot these days. I've been busy working but other than that i didn't really do much, every weekends just rot in the house and rest.. Hmm the strange thing is I MISS UK life, the question is why? I've sort out of a few possibilities:

1. I din really get to meet much people since i came back, practically just 4 people .. (harri-once, juvy-once, jian-twice, kw-consider twice, Val, wk, tian hao, windy, chi-wynn and vivian) .. super sad case

2. Is it that i'm just too lazy to bother anything else ? or you cant say ignorant..

3. Is it because i'm too busy working ? that takes 5 out of 7 days each week?

4, and the last question i ask myself.. Do i have the heart to make all the things happen?

Somehow i find myself being very lazy and ignorant these days.. cant take up the initiative to contact my frens and to patch things up again. I miss UK because the life there is very straight forward, study and stay alive. Haih, wat shud i do? i'm so lazy to update the blog cos there is really nth much to update about my life. just work work work and rest rest rest.. Well at least i bought quite some stuff ..

Nikon D3000 and Lowepro Versapack 200 AW

A pair of Adidas shoes and a pair of new sunglasses.. Aiks leaving M'sia soon (20 Sept) hope to get something out of these 5 weeks..

gotta sleep, tmr need to work.. nitez

Ciaoz

Miri Trip

2010-06-19T17:21:00.002+01:00

Thanks to the most generous Windy's parents, I get to go Miri, Sarawak for a nice trip. Waikit and Val join me for the trip too, I meet up with Wakiki also aka "yucky n wai wai" in LCCT in the morning and off we go to Miri.. Haha i can still rmb wk says that Miri airport is like Lego airport cos is very small.. LOL! When we are out, Windy and Val are already out there sitting in starbucks waiting for us, pity them have to wait for us for so long.. hehe then we start our journey with Windy's very classic Honda City aka "1985" haha

The whole Miri trip is about FOOD, FOOD and FOOD only, and occasionally some parks and beach.. Haha Marina Bay for the Huge Seahorse and ofcos our beloved Tanjung Lobang.. We had lots of food in Miri, i think in these 3 days we almost eat all the local delicacies in Miri.. All of us stayed in Windy's house and the 4 of us sleeps in Windy's room. Haha her BEDroom is really literally BEDroom, because there is only BED in the room and nothing else, not even a small table to put your stuff or a cabinet and wardrobe.. Val is quite crazy about WiFi, until she ask about WiFi everywhere we go to on the Facebook.. Hmm i guess Facebook really did took her life away.. Haha

Val had some great jokes about our sleeping patterns, and most of us do not believe what she said but somehow in my heart i know it is TRUE.. Windy u fart, Waikit u snores, well i snored and Val don't sleep so near to me! i almost roll down the mattress.. Sobs.. Haha anyway it is still a great trip and i swear I'll go there again to visit her parents, they are very kind and i like them.. hehe

For photos, I'm still waiting for Val to post them up in either FB or her blog.. Plz wait and be patience.. Got to work soon, wish me luck!!

Ciaoz

Memory Lane

2010-06-19T16:41:00.003+01:00

Hehe the first thing that i did when i came back from UK is.. Meet up with kw, jian and ju, quite happy to see them again, seems to me they din change a lot since i last met them. I wish time would rewind and i could repeat my high school years again but i know it is not possible, but the memories will always stays with me forever. I consider myself as quite a lucky person, I've met quite some different people in this 20 years and some really gives me some incredible memories.

Looking back to primary school times, my first tuition mates are still in touch until now and i miss the times when we will all sit in the class and joke with Hazman, miss you guys hope we can meet again real soon. Then my primary school mates, although we are not very close but it is still nice to have at least a gathering each year to keep track of everybody's life. Moving on to secondary school, my secondary school can be divided into 2 parts, that is high school (F4, F5) and Middle school (F1, F2, F3). In Middle school, I've met some really interesting friends that teach me a lot things, and show me the real world outside my parent's protection. You can say that it might be my rebellious years because i really tried a lot of stuff back then, but hey it turns out i am a good girl.. hehe

Ok, now in High School. I made my decision to drop Bio and take Account after 3 months of pure science class. Well my life experience could be different if i continue to study Bio in that class but life is about making choices right, when you made the decision you will have to live with it, no regrets.. I change to a sub-science class and met these bunch of crazy friends, to tell you the truth i think that two years is the best time of my life till now. No academic pressure, what is stress anyway, by that time i don't really care about anything the only thing i know back then is PLAY and have FUN.. Met my best friend then, well for all these years she is the first one who can really understand me and i really glad that i met her.. My life had change a lot since then, I've become more playful, talkative and cheerful.. Thanks to you guys, my life has change to be more colorful..

Then, i come to Taylors to further my study in Business Foundation. To tell you the truth, the first day of school is quite intimidating for me, but life moves on and I've bond quite well with my classmates. Group 4, we are the best, we are the Future Billionaire and no one can replace us!! Oh well I had some great moments with them, YED day and redang trip was incredible. Although is just one year i think it is not short to me and we really fully utilized it, no regrets!!

When I've further moved on to year one of Accounting and Finance in UWE, again I've meet some great classmates. Our year one course is just 6 months, very short huh.. In the first few months i feel quite lonely, but later on somehow i started to mix with them more and we really click. Having badminton every Tuesday really helps to bond us more, and having lunch together too.. Study for finals and helping each other to strike for first class, the memories are just too great to be forgotten. Further on, I went to UK to study alone.. Come to think of it, i always start a new journey alone and it all went well i guess I'm just a very lucky person. In UK, I've met some nice friends mostly are my seniors, they really help me a lot, they can guide me when i have problems and they will also bring fun to me..

The friends I've met and accompany me with different journeys.. All of you, yes those of you that read my blog even though i seldom post anything up and those who will always remember me and those who wants to share their great moments with me.. I love you guys!! Here i dedicate this lovely songs to you guys, my favorite band ever.. Westlife- Reach Out .. Remember I will always be there for you just like you will always be there for me when i need you..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uwVLF7RfuNM

Exam

2010-05-11T20:35:00.002+01:00

hey guys, i guess i'm sort of stuck with this 'a post per month' thingy which i tend to only post once a month.. haha paiseh ar, but better than din post anything rite.. hehe

So exam is tmr, for the 1st time i'm having exam outside on my own. The feeling is quite different you know. Last time every night before my exam i feel so calm having dinner with my family, watch some tv and go up have a last glimpse of the notes. Now, i'm alone it feels so scary maybe because i dun feel the family warmness that gives me support and maybe i'm just nervous for exam. For 20 yrs of my life i've never study so hard, dun mention everyday study in library for at least 5 hrs.. for god sake i've never study in a library b4!! haha ironic ya, how much environment can change a person.

well things r still quite dull here, i'm looking forward to my parents n my bro arrival on 6 of June, we will have a nice trip here and then; when i'm back to Malaysia, Windy Waikit and Val we will have a good time in Miri.. Yeah !! and i'll start my internship until its almost time for me to come back again..

Ohya after the exam we will have a paintball game .. Wee hope it will be nice, till then i shall work hard for the examsss..

Ciaoz

Random updates..

2010-04-19T21:04:00.003+01:00

Okay so most of u guys knew that i had some 'story' haha, thanks to hh's stupid skype date we actually get to bond again.. well it gets me thinking for a while.. single or double, is it better to be with with a. somebody u like but he/she dun like u ? b. somebody who like u, but u like like him/her. and ofcos everybody wants c. both of u likes each other. Somehow for me, it's a bit complicated so i decided that i will keep looking for c. 1stly i cant bear liking someone else who doesn't like me, and 2ndly i dun think i'll accept option b. its too selfish.. so yeah, i guess i'll still be staying single for a while.. hehe

Exams coming, tat day i spoke with some frens, and unintentionally i mentioned that "stress ar, wanna get 1st class", whoa i really do care alot about results now huh?? i still rmb those time whr i dun give a damn about results and exam.. hmm i miss those time, everyday so relax.. Now have a lot of time in library revisioning.. Yaya i know 1st class is like a dream for a few subjects, so at least give me a 2:1, for the effort?? haha

ohya, i went Paris for almost a week, sincerely speaking.. i dun see why they call it the romantic city?? maybe the lights r too dim, so you feel romantic in the streets.. or maybe the lights are too dim u can do a lot of things *ehem ehem u guys use ur imagination la.. haha nevertheless, i gain some nice frens and accompanies in this trip.. jinyu jing chawyee jarik applelim sean grace neoh thecouple and also my beloved WANTAN.. haha i miss u guys!! hope to see u all soon..

okla nth much to post d, stay tune for more news?? i couldn't say it is interesting cuz i dunno wat is waiting for me in the future.. but yet i shall brace myself and accept anything that will happen.. muahahaha

Ciaoz...

20th Birthday

2010-04-01T19:03:00.002+01:00

Hmm i can say is quite dull here, as nobody is here. Well at least that night milk n tse wei came over to have a mini celebration with me. Some frens actually call and text me.. Not bad not bad, but honestly i wasn't very happy but well i din bother.. Until just now i went to check my mail box and guess wat i saw ??

UWE sent me my paycheck and wt's card. Well at least i got a present from UWE (btw i got 56pounds, not bad huh??) wt card really surprise me alot, she really took the effort to give me a surprise.. WAN TENG !!! Thank you very much, i like the card alot, cos is special and unique.. there will be only one in this world and it belongs to me, for that i'm very grateful.

You see gifts are not about the price, is about the sincerity.. wt ur bday i promise i'll giv u a really big surprise !!! Muahahaha..

Ciaoz

Time~~

2010-03-28T06:56:00.002+01:00

hmm i stayed up all night watching movie and drama, is it fun?? well hell ya comparing staying up to do assignment. Plz allowed me just this once to do something foolish, my life has always been doing the right thing and making the right choice, so sometimes i like to do something foolish to remind me that i can still bend or break the rules.. hehe

Time flies, i can still remember the first day i reached UK quite innocent you can say, just by the look of my face u can tell that i'm lost for quite a while.. haha now its almost finals and wtf i've been here alone for like 6 months ad.. wow is really very fast and the next thing u know, i'm flying back to m'sia for summer break and most probably doing an internship somewhere. Well life here wasn't easy but is not hard either, just imagine you have to come back to your room alone compare to your warm house. No one nagging you, no one to ask 'mii what to eat today..' and no one to fight with. In a conclusion life is quite dull here, well u learn how to cook and at the same time learn how to skip meals as well (bcoz too lazy to cook).

LOL i still rmb i used to complain some of the dishes my mom cook sucks, now when i cook myself i really know that cooking isn't easy. Hmm had some bad times here but also some good ones as life is not perfect, when you receive something good the bad ones will come to balance it off (tats my believe only, ofcos). I'd met some nice frens here which broaden my eyesight, pity they are all my seniors, it would be nice to hang out with them more.. I kinda miss my all my frens back in m'sia, how to say, erm they suit me more.. haha i'm going to find my high skol frens. primary skol frens (some closer ones), secondary skol frens, foundation frens, year one frens and also dun forget miss low tuition gang.. haha i need to find so many people dunno got enaf time anot, cos i need to work some more..

Aiks i duwan to waste my youth just like this, as we all know it by heart, once you step out to the society you wont be the same anymore or in other words you CANT be the same... pity my seniors that wanna find jobs already, they must have been in so much stress!! These few days we had some nice skype conversation with a few of my closer frens, it was nice to hear their voice after so long and i think hh say will keep that conversation box so that we can chat with each other more often.. Later on i'll need to clean myself up and get ready for the UKEC fair in UCL London, get ready to promote myself in order to get an internship. Preparing myself for the event, gaining back all the confidence in order to attract them.. Wish me luck in getting an intern or some internsss .. haha dun be greedy one is better than nth..

okay to be honest, i have some stories going on.. since Mr. M i seems to have some firewall against those people that suddenly treat me very good. I know you guys would say that i'm over sensitive but this is my way of protecting myself. Anyway my plan is AVOID haha just try to avoid as much as i can and eventually he will give up (well tats wat i hope). I felt so sorry for the guy for i dun have feelings for him and i dont wish to waste his time, so i think this is best of the both of us. Lastly, my bday is almost here, i hereby wanna pre-wish my 1st bday wish that is 'hope u guys will still experience the "Life is full of surprise" tag line i used for years' cos when life is dull, it will not compile and add on to a colourful album.

Ciaoz

Library nights again..

2010-03-06T00:22:00.002Z

Lol this is another sleepless night in library again.. Previously i spend around 4 to 5 days in library completing FA assignment. Now, is time for Law assignment... Well the due date is not very near yet, but i wanna to to Birmingham to watch Yonex All England Championship, so have to finish it earlier.

I'm here in the library, but dun really have any mood to start doing it. So i thought i shud post something here since it had been quite some time. Today i looked at some of the people's blog, noticed that they had changed alot since secondary skol. Surprisingly, i feel the same as well, maybe i'm changing as well. I really appreciate the last trip together with kit, harrison and kw. You are right, this trip capture all our last innocence in the picture. We might not feel the same anymore in our next trip, thank you for the trip.

Sometimes, i really hope i can stay the same, retain the childishness and happiness from secondary skol. But as you see, people change, the environment especially will make you change. CHANGE is a scary thing, there is a law that state if there is one thing that wont change, then it is 'change' itself. Haha funny rite but is quite true. I miss the time we did volunteering work together, it was very tiring but it was very enjoyable as well !! Gathering in somebody's hse was fun also, but kit they all joking around.

Hmm, seems like time pass so fast, can i not work after i graduate? now i really understand why my parents said study time is the best. Once you start to work, your life will be very different, because you have more responsibilities and also WORRIES.. ok la i need to get back to work d..

Ciaoz

CNY

2010-02-15T22:06:00.002Z

Hmm its been some time since i last post, well finally i have something very wonderful to share with u guys. I had quite a nice CNY here in UK.. EAT EAT EAT, LOL.. Friday night is MSA night in Shanghai Night, so imagine a place with unlimited food (buffet) who can tahan?? 'plus i din eat breakfast and lunch for that day' haha.. The off to Java for some drinks and dance, like the usual thing to do here d, after dinner must go for a drink.. This bad habit must change.

Saturday, as usual din makan at all, there is 31 of us so there is 3 tables with the 10 dishes set dinner.. The total bill is so amazing 641.85 POUNDS haha i think tats around 3 443.33854 Malaysian ringgits 'lol tats what google convert for me' Haha so nice hor the figure.. One night spend so much, crazy d.. Then tonight very good din go club, instead we went casino !! Lol, won 2pounds from the machine, enough to cover my bus ride home.. haha

Sunday, woke up 8.30am and went to kakak Jean's place and started to prepare all the FOOD again.. haha our CNY revolves around food only, yeap it tooks us 3 hours plus to prepare all the stuff (u know la amateurs ma) .. Finally at 12.30pm we MAKAN !! so happy.. hehe keep and clean all the stufff, went back at 2 something can took a nap. At night we had a steamboat party at Kakak Michelle's place, it was nice and after that the usual practice came up, blast music in the living area (also the kitchen) and some play cards.. hehe then all of us went back at 10 something.

Okay finish all the fun part, so happened my audit assignment is due on monday 15 Feb, from above u can see that i'm busy celebrating, hehe.. Now behind the scenes story, every night i came back need to do assignment so this few days i practically din sleep more than 17 hours i think.. and for those who knows me very well, I'm a PIG i need a lot of sleeps.. so today, i'm practically half conscious throughout the whole day and i skip badminton cause i feel like a bit dizzy after i tahan until the last class which is 4.30.. monday class is 8.30 to 4.30 ofcos in between got break but not long enaf to sleep.. haih finally went back took a nap for 3 hours and wake up do tax assignment cos tmr got meeting and FA tutorials..

So here i am posting about this few crazy days i've been through. Is nice but the assignment ruin it all.. I HATE AUDIT... babi punya module..

p/s: if Michelle and Jean knows i put them KAKAK they will kill me for sure.. so Shhhh dun tell them. and happy CNY for all my readers.. hehe Ching yee, kw, hh, harrison.. i think four of u are the constant one..

Ciaoz

Confusion ??

2010-01-17T04:05:00.002Z

I've always thought that helping friends are very good. Somehow, i feel regret now....

I'd met a few new frens here and sincerely and seriously speaking.. I dun feel like this bunch of us can really make up a nice group of frens. Each of of us is so different, but yet we are still together somehow because there is only a FEW of us. Yes, very pity i know. Some1 wanna come UK to study together with me? hope so..

Well, they are starting to get to my nerve lately. I had to admit although i'm not those person with EQ 200 or watever, but my patience are quite high level compared to others. I guess my closer frens will know that i dun like ppl who are not time-conscious. These people, dun even have a tiny bit of it in them, well tats tolerable, after all this is common. Next big issue about them is lack of responsibility. I mean c'mon u r living so freaking far away from home, i think u at least will know that u need to take care of ur studies. YET, all they know is complain.. WTF, like the words that come out from ur mouth can help??

THEN, nvm this cont with unstoppable praising about UNISA course, c'mon u r studying in UWE so plz stop whining and start to do something for ur future. If unisa are that good, y u come to uwe in the 1st place? u got some kind of sickness izzit?? okay, about m'sia.. like i said, if u wanna go back, just GO.. like i care, i dun give a shit.. STOP complaining about UK education style, because our education style are originated from here.. i dun see wats the diff?? Buck up people, tats nth like spoon feeding here, u need to learn urself, isnt tat very clear after a semester?? or r u blind or deaf?

Finally, plz learn to take care of urself. Take the bus and dun sleep, dun expect everybody will be so good to wake u up, PLUS i dun think they even know where u wanna go. I doubt u too.. How long had u came, can u guys at least know the roads, plan ur own trip, and stop depending others to do all the stuff for you. What u do is take for granted, not even a nice 'thank you'.. After some serious consideration, i've decided to not compromise with them anymore, i gotta go my own way and do my own stuff.. I wont waste my time and effort for these people who dun deserve it..

my dear readers.. any support will be very nice.. hehe

01.01.10

2010-01-01T16:44:00.002Z

Today is the first day in a new year. Well as usual yesterday i went out to countdown, unlike the previous years, this time i went to a club to countdown. As you can probably imagine, is super full inside but it was fun!! haha.. I went with the seniors, sito jean suetling and her sis and suetling's bf.. Have a pre drinking session in suetling's place lol almost KO thr cos din really eat b4 i drink, but after i puke a lil bit out, then ok d.. hehe so happy(high) la that time

Then when into oceana, (lucky honping is in between us, so the guard din really check on him and let him in) btw, oceana dun let ppl wear sport shoe in wan, very weird.. haha we dance lor then very tired d go sit down and we drink WATER only le.. hehe see i'm so guai, din drink alcohol le.. Oh ya around 2am plus, starting got alot of crazy guys come kacau d, haih lucky got suetling's bf thr.. but the conversation is funny.. it starts with:

the guy: I like chinese girls...

Me: I dun like You !!!

Haha funny rite, but the guy still coming abit scary cos he's very strong.. but like i say lucky got honping.. hehe tqtq very much ya..

Around 3am plus we went back d, cos all of them r tired.. yep reach home take a bath n chat with my bro while waiting for my hair to dry.. but in the end i cannot tahan, the hair haven all dry yet, i go sleep d, dun care !! hehe

tats all about it.. today i wake up arounf 2.30pm, i sleep for 9 hours plus only dun consider as pig kua??

hehe .. Happy New Year !!

winter break

2009-12-29T22:43:00.002Z

hmm i think it had been some time since i last update my blog. Oh well, lets write some updates about myself for those who care.. hehe on 17 of dec i went to Milan with milo, tse wei, hehui, melissa and milk, ohya we went to venice also but one day trip only lor.. hehe the temperature thr always stay around -5, so damn cold and yet we insist that we want to eat gelato (ice cream) everyday. But, seriously is very nice!!! It snows heavily on the day that we were suppose to catch our plane back to Bristol. Guess wat, we waited for the shuttle bus for 2.30 hours and hopped on to it. When we reach the Malpensa airport, we saw alot of people sitting on the floor and also alot of ppl queuing up at the check-in desk (before that we ad know that our flight had been cancelled, thx to my iphone.. hehe) Then slowly we start to line up also to ask for any solution, waited for another 1 or 2 hours or so, finally is our turn.

Know wat, the fella tell us the fastest we can go back is after Christmas (today is just 21dec). Then we decided to ask for help from parents, luckily milk's aunt help us found another plane tmr morning that still has places, so we went to another terminal (a nicer wan, for bigger planes) and overnight thr, this is my first time sleep on the floor in a public area. Haha i tell u, when u r so damn tired, u wont care where u sleep.. finally we caught the plane and reach london and took the megabus home.

Rest for one day, yeah on 24dec we took a 6 something bus to london, we plan to stay thr for christmas and boxing day. It was quite boring thr, but still better than nth to do rite.. haha boxing day was killing. So many ppl lining up in front of harrods and we went zara instead. Brought one shirt for myself, it was cheap 10pounds how much can u still ask for?? then next stop body shop, brought a travel kit (inside of lotion n shower gel) so next time travel can bring d, and it costs only 3.50.. rush to burberry and wait for it to open, hmm wants to buy one polo shirt, after get permission from mommy my shirt got no size d!!! so sad, haih got money also no use ar 51pound i wanna buy also dun have.. sobs

Went back that nite and eat up the leftover cupnoodles.. haha so sad, we only eat cupnoodles on christmas cos no shops open.. the next nite we cook bak kut teh at tse wei's place, hmm it tastes not bad, next time shud cook again.. hehe

i think tats all about my recent updates, need to start study and do assignment d lor.. today i sit infront of the comp for almost 5hrs just the complete the excel part of the starting of the assignment.. die d.. haih need to complete my CV also le.. so many things to do, yet so little time. Dun care tmr must go town watch Sherlock Hommes.. hehe

Ohya everyone still have some MILAN INFECTION and GELATO INFECTION form italy..

'castello' 'restorante' 'bliglietto' 'toillette' 'centralle de milano' haha.. so funny and we miss gelato !!!

Ciaoz

12.12

2009-12-13T23:06:00.002Z

hmm wrote this on yesterday nite but stupid blogspot dun let me post this...

today is 12 of dec, sometimes i'll wonder if we are still together how will it be now?? its been like 3 years since that day and alot had happened. Not something to be proud of, but it is a valuable experience to me. If i know we will come to this place and study together, will i still make the same decision? i'm not sure but at least i know since then i haven really put any effort into relationship. Especially wat happen a few months later..

I've learned alot during this 2 years, single can be very fun but also can be very sad. When i'm taking the train back to Bristol, i'm so tired because the feeling of someone to rely on is gone. Well cant say i regret, but sure it will be nice to have somebody to take care of you. Somehow when i first came here, alone, only realise that for these 2 years whenever i feel lonely i can still find him or her. But it is so diff here, so near yet so far. We are in the same country but still quite far apart. Will i ever find someone i like again, i dunno but at least i hope he does and the relationship will be successful. Hope he finds someone who knows how to be a girlfriend..

Business Simulation

2009-11-06T21:36:00.002Z

Yep it happen again, when things are going well and suddenly there will be a thing to pull me back down.. Well i understand that, but WHY WHY this time have to be my assignment?? 20% is freaking too much for me to bear!! I feel like killing people now, well can say is my mistake, i shudn't let them check the the touch, and damn i shudn't even let them know the freaking ID and password. Now, everything is gone.. emergency loan of 3mil, where in the hell that i'm gonna find money to repay that. The brand is not good ad, plus this stupid loan..

Ahhh!!!! !@%@#%#@^%$!&^$!#^!# .. Damn it...

Halloween

2009-11-02T20:22:00.000Z

Know what I actually did quite a lot of things on tat day. Amazing rite, what can a person do in just 24 hours. In this post, I’ll share with you about what I did. We gather at 4.30am to hop on a 5am bus to Nottingham, to be honest in the badminton game I’m really pissed off. Shud have win the 1^st round if I take care of my body better I shud be able to win her, but anyhow I lose and I went to find wanteng. Jinwye’s bro took us around and show us how to get to the city, but b4 tat we had some nasi lemak in the Portland complex. Well we hang around together that day, and hh like “pai ka” a bit so he walks very slow, hehe it was a tiring day but I dun regret it cos I get to meet them.

Bus leaves at 6pm and reach home around 8.30pm, came back and took a bath went to suet ling’s place to look at wat they r preparing for the party. Din plan to put any make up cos I nvr like to put also.. haha but in the end when I wanna leave melissa drag me back again and suet ling put eye shadow n mascara on me.. to be honest, I’m quite nervous when her hands are on my face especially EYE.. haha then went to ZEN with James, the cab driver who took us thr mention tat he’s going to m’sia the next day so we wrote him some nice places to visit. Hmm went there and becos sito they all not here yet, so we started to drink. The shots got very nice container like test tubes (for picture look at my fb) so each of us took 6 shots .. although is just 14% but still abit too much, haha din care so much and watch some show. I think 10 mins later we had one redbull+vodka mixer and smitoff ice (dunno how to spell). Okay after that a bit dizzy, haha text sito to come quickly, mean while I hang with milo, tse wei and sin yee to cool down abit..

When sito came they drag me here and there, omg tat time super dizzy ad still need to walk here walk there lucky they got use one hand to support me.. hehe I think around 2 to 3am one of the guys brought us chivas shot, lol I think I dun feel anything but sito they all a bit dizzy ad.. haha rest abit and cont. around 3.30 we decide to go home and waited for the cab like half an hour. Is freaking cold out there!! Ohya btw I jump queue when I go into the club, cos the fren (the one from shanghai knight) brought us in.. hehe lucky me. Went home bath, eat a bit so around 5am only sleep.

Tats the story in 24hrs, damn nice rite but I can tell you is killing dun do this too often. Haha and I think Milo and some yr 3 guys r drunk on tat nite, is funny to watch them and a bit scary also but not as scary as those ppl who really make up for the Halloween party. For more pictures plz look at my fb..

Ciaoz..

Current Lifestyle

2009-10-24T23:41:00.002+01:00

Hey, sorry for not blogging for such a long time. Not completely my fault though, cos life is pretty dry here nothing much to talk about. I even start to doubt my display name "life is full of surprise" haih. Back in M'sia i really enjoy life to the fullest but here is just so boring, especially during weekends. There's no other night entertainment here except clubbing and drinking, this just get uninteresting as time goes by. Really hope i can get more stuff to do in the future, since i cant get better part time job relating to my field of studies then i might as well consider volunteering. Well at least i can live my life more meaningfully.

Before i come here, i always thought that the problems will be homesick and culture shock. But now my major problem is the lifestyle, i feel so lazy here with nothing to do most of the time sometimes i can just space out doing nothing for an hour. I think i need a serious planning about my life here and how to live it to the fullest, weekdays are normal because pack with studies the only thing will be weekends. I started to join my Christian activities to fill up my time, i feel so disappointed about my life now..

Anybody has any idea to help me with it?

Ciaoz

...

2009-10-01T12:15:00.003+01:00

Hmm nothing much to post lately cos skol starts ad. So just to update about some funny and memorable event that had occurred. Well that day i accidentally got one of my white shirt mix with another shirt and damn shit the colour kena my t shirt ad.. tat day damn emo cos tats one of my favourite t shirt, but then we went to McD and beside there got a Next Clearance, consider damn cheap ad la so i brought 2 WHITE shirts .. hehe for 14pound quite worth it la, sommore is nice .. Okay the next event we went cam whoring with the UWE grass, haha very lame right but wat to do ?? 5 crazy girls go out is liddat wan la.. the pics will be post on fb soon cos is with ching.

Class is so boring although is just one hour, i wonder how i can last during taylors time where classes are TWO hours.. Haha anyhow our timetable is quite pack cos we have two extra subjects, GDP and Placement. Some modules like Audit and Corporate Finance got something call Clinic some more haih waste my time only .. Yesterday night Ching, Sherlene and I try to cook a proper meal which consist of grill chicken (by me), ABC soup (by Ching) and fried ladyfinger with cili padi (by sherlene) lastly we add one omelet. At the end, omg cant believe we can cook so well , the food is so damn nice and the rice is also well cooked..

Haha so who says first timer cant cook well.. See we prove to them that we are so good at this, so we plan every week at least once we cook a proper meal for ourselves.. hehe

ohya today damn sampat we all wear short pants and went out on a 15 degrees day.. OMG i can tell u is super super cold.. haha but its FUN !!

Tats all about it, wanna go out have lunch ad.. Ciaoz

update

2009-09-22T23:37:00.002+01:00

haih today damn sad la cos kena some stupid shit from the PAL, nvm they will regret it. Now i only understand that people say never easily give hope or promise to others.. Cos that hurts alot.. well i'm sitting here in my room alone and blogging while my frens when out to party mainly becos i'm sick.. From the time i go into my frens room i know that i cant go out, cos the feeling is not right anymore.. Now i'm freaking coughing like hell, lets hope tmr morning i'll be fine and they wont notice it.

I dun want anybody to worry about me, nah tats me always wanna be strong, why? i dun know.. I told them that i'm lazy and tired so i duwan to go although i told them i'll go with them. I broke my promise and i know they are disappointed but what can i do? in this condition i cant go anywhere. Even if i did went it would only drag them down cos they will have to look out for me, cant have fun, and wasted 5 pounds each..

hmm nth much to say, nitez everybody ...

What a night

2009-09-18T10:02:00.002+01:00

Yesterday night is very eventful.. why? because i've learn alot ..

It started with just the barn dance organized by the uni and well 5 of us went to have fun.. and when it almost finish left me sherlene n ching.. Then we hang out with a few people there and when the bar is closing we went to a person's house.. And the fun part begins !!

hmm we played truth or dare with the rule that one truth will have to come with 3 dares. I can tell you their dare is very diff from our dare.. well i can say i'm the unlucky one, but still acceptable la.. well if u want some photo it will be on facebook..

Ciaoz..

Bristol

2009-09-15T07:52:00.002+01:00

yep i'm here and seriously its quite boring.. maybe is bcos i dun have housemates yet or frens yet.. well nvm i think tmr i'll find some cos if no frens is very hard to survive la... Hmm it seems like i dun have jet lag cos i sleep very well yesterday night.. Wanna go out today but cant find anyone to teman me .. How? going alone seems very depressing and dangerous( cos i dunno the road).. haih where's the others?

Okay nth much to post so ciao 1st.. Tata

TBF

2009-09-09T12:02:00.002+01:00

Today i meet up with some foundation frens.. Well i din stay long cos i scare will get very emotional at the end so i just meet them for maybe 15 mins then ciao ad.. Weili n Janet's hug really make me feel very lonely for a moment. I never tot i'll be missing them so much, at least not until the hugs.

Hereby i wanna thanks all the foundation frens, thank you u all for the happy moments that we shared .. The redang trip, classroom jokes, G floor, and lots more, i will forever treasure it cos i dun think when i'm back, the things will still stay the same. As law of Murphy said the only thing that is constant is Change, people will change in a few years time so i cant guarantee that we will be the same like now in the future.

Thanks Guys !!!

Reveal!!

2009-09-07T16:18:00.003+01:00

Well i think my blog is officially reveal to some of the frens that i wish they would know about my life when i'm not here anymore. Hmm i still hope that ppl dun link me to their blog cos i dun like ppl start blog hopping and end up with my end ( plz forgive my selfishness ).

Yiaks !! left a few more days only, what shud i do now? i seriously have no idea but at least i have a plan on friday, it would be a memorable day in my chapters of life. For this, i like to thanks jian and harrison for suggesting it. I really hope we can capture the last of our childishness, innocence, playful and carefree part of ourselves b4 it is gone...

I guess thats it for this post really got nth much to say.. looking forward to friday!!

Take care of urself when i'm gone guys!!

ciaoz..

Hang Out

2009-08-31T08:47:00.002+01:00

Well yesterday supposingly shud be the gathering b4 i leave m'sia, but it was cancel. People always say if u lose something then you will sure get something, so in return, i get to spend some time with 2 of my fren harrison and Jian. It started out when both of them call me to ask about the gathering and i told them it is cancelled, then i ask them out for dinner (wanteng ffk me within 20 mins, swt man). We meet Mr Wong and chat a while with him then he help us to decide where to eat dinner.

The dinner was quite normal as we chat about our life and some jokes, then they say very emo just sitting here and chat so we went tesco and brought batteries and some very funny jokes about trolly and the kids playground. Next destination is the Caltex petrol station near my hse, from there we decided to go my hse and later come out to watch fireworks. In between that, we chat about our future (mostly to help jian to decide about his future) yaya dunno y the 3 of us always end up together chatting for a very long period.. i dunno dun ask me. I still rmb the terengganu beach where other people nearly wanna beat us cos our laughter is distracting them the whole night. Those days were so nice, eventful, no stress, dunno what is the word 'study' 'homework' (cos we nvr did) 'exam' 'SPM' is known as Sijil paling mudah or murah.

Haha those were the days. Now, everybody is chasing after their own dream (except jian ofcos) and the laughter are not really deep down from the heart anymore. No more CS with teacher and no more playing in skol. Every move you make will affect your future, and this is very frustrating indeed. They say they find it hard to post becos everytime you got the feeling of posting something is becos u r emo (true that). Well we went out and sort of watch fireworks, cos this year our stupid govn no money so the nicest fireworks award belong to Genting City of Entertainment !!! Haha .. Yup then we hang out until 3am in the morning, i dunno what we chat for so long but that time i really feel like i'm back to form 4 where we are all so innocent, childish and enjoying our life like nobody business.

Thx for the great memories. I think i'll try my best to go out on 11 cos i think it will help me find back my old childish and innocent self.

LooOOooNNnG Post ..

2009-08-09T07:45:00.002+01:00

Hmm when is the last time i posted about my life, well seriously i cant recall. but here i am again updating all of you tat read my blog. Okay start from the genting trip, although its only the 4 of us (cos william got emergency stuff, so he need to go back) but i still enjoy it very much, for more information you guys shud visit Lisa's blog, she got tons of funny pictures and even video clips of us. Then she proclaim me as the guru of yoga.. funny cos i can do some tricks that the old woman (windy) cant do.. haha cant blame her cos she's OLD, lol if she see this post i bet she's going to kill me.. Well sarawak is having water supply problem, i hope she and Valerie are doing fine there.

Next, about the working days.. Well suppose i shud say that i'm super duper lucky to work there. The ppl are nice, they teach me alot of things and for that i'm grateful. Yup, tats about it.. just learning and experience new stuff. Then now comes the exciting part, the results came out. Wee, the results are expected, din dissappoint me or my parents so i'm quite happy actually. After the result is out, i call my dad and tell him about it .. ohya b4 tat the old woman(windy) contacted me b4 i wanna tell her result is out.. haha she damn fast la.. Now everything is settle, just need to wait for my VISA letter to come then can finally go UK ad..

Yesterday was an eventful day. I'm watching drama on friday nite and so happens becos of that i get to chat with kylie and harri .. with kylie we plan a gathering for all the old old frens and with harri i get a chance to meet up with him and kw. Then morning breakfast soon turn out to be a mini reunion in our SBS school.. All the photoKaki is back to school to help out for the photo session of the chinese society camp, the rest of us just go back to kacau only.. haha.. then after some time a lot of ppl actually turn up, and i met all the pi family members (ju, jin kw and carrie) so is quite worth so go back. Sorry for lock lock and penguin(shuying, dunno y i call her tat forget ad ) cos i cant make it to TS.

Then harri send me back to my hse around 5pm.. Tat day was tired cos i only sleep for 4 hrs, harri bro's Myvi is super chunted man, cos they modified it and got turbo some more. We tested it while we are on the way going back to my hse and the thrill of it accelerating at high speed is so great. Well maybe is the super GOOD chicken rice+ the super Tasty coffee+ the super amazing sausage bun that i've ever eat, all these 3 food actually upset my stomach and it makes me lose my appetite.. haih but nvm at least i still get to see all these long time frens.

Well tats about it, it seems shorter than i expected to be but hey, as u know i'm not so good in expressing myself not to say in words somemore. Just to be fair to those who wanna know whats happening to me, so i decided to blog.. hehe i think a few more weeks then i'll inform some of my frens about this hidden blog that i own.. hehe

Lastly i hope everybody is happy because life is short so you shud enjoy it so the fullest.

Always rmb to work hard but play harder. Study smart instead of study hard !!

Ciaoz..

year one

2009-07-11T18:50:00.002+01:00

oh well i just finish my exam !! YEAH, but this also means that i wont be able to see my frens ad.. SOBS .. haih pathetic la.. one week later i will be working until i fly off to UK.. and some frens r going back to their home some are working.. how am i suppose to meet them? hmm maybe next year, or maybe this christmas i might come back if i miss them..

Say goodbye to:
library boy
temple boy
noodle girl
Tower of Doom
Sexy girl (this is what she call herself, also aka The blogger)
and my other classmates

from:
neighbour girl ..

feelings

2009-06-19T18:09:00.003+01:00

There are times when we have doubts with our decision and our beliefs. This beliefs that we are holding on is it really correct? how would it affect others? When a situation happens and it requires immediate decision, did you always made the right ones or the wrong ones?

Late at night or you might call in early in the morning, i am sitting down in front of my computer and all these sudden thoughts just came and crush into my tiny brain. And so i decided to post about it just to record down my feelings at this moment. Sometimes i will have some doubts about the choice i made for my life about the way i act, the principles and belief that i am holding tightly, and the choices i made. Well, is it right for me? or maybe i should change? well that's not a question for me to answer. Because one of the principle of mine is that other people matters a lot more than myself, i dunno where i get this principle from but it actually guided me for all these years. Now, I am sitting here feeling so exhausted and tired of what i did and what i am planning to do.. it just so uncomfortable.

Everytime when i had to fake a smile to people it actually takes up a lot of me. When the results are bad, the parents are not understanding enough, or even having a hard time with the relationship (currently single, so nth to worry about), is there anything i can do to release it? Well last time i used sports. but now sports is not an option anymore because i dun have my kaki-kaki that will accompany me. This morning i tried to study, the end result was almost 2 hours for less than one chapter. Never ever in my life that i feel that i am so useless, i have no mood, no determination, no pressure to study. The fear of getting poor results is not enough to push me.. So who can help me now?

So who do i seek advise from when i am in this situation? God? i dun think so. Parents? I never let them see that i have a problem. Friends? For them, I am just a happy child..

Life goes on with full of surprises and i shall not give up my idiotic principle and continue my life. Well lets just leave all these questions to my fate and hope that someday i will get an answer from somebody or somewhere..

A friend of mine just get approved by UM, she's so happy about it and i think she will strive till the end.. Congratz pipoh kw, now i have less things to worry when i'm in UK since you are on your way to a better future.

haiz..

2009-06-12T17:56:00.002+01:00

I wonder why people always tell me that 'SPM is tough pre-u will have culture shock but when you get to degree it will be easy'

THIS IS BULL SHIT !!!

i feel like kena cheated kau kau man.. i got past SPM like normal only, pre u is just as fun as any high school years. but DEGREE omg is killing man, aiks the 8 to 5 class i had adjusted myself to it. the tough syllabus also can cope with it, but the final exam and the assignment is killing me. MOB please dun fail me cos i need you so much, muaks muaks .. (guess i'd gone nuts) well after MOB i'm going to target the final examination, for 19 years i never feel the urge to study b4 this is the 1st time and seriously i DUN LIKE this feeling. hmm is this wat they called stress, haih i'm so sure about it cos somehow a part of me is still having fun despise the exam is approaching.

People i may seems to be strong, but sometimes i wish i can be weak also. Cos being strong is taking up a lot of my energy, the ego and pretending sometimes is just too much for me to bear..
haih, anyhow i still like to qoute this " Life is full of surprises" so dun give up Esther/yan. hehe i'm talking to myself .. WTH

lol ciaoz.. wish me luck in the MOB presentation !!

Life

2009-06-05T16:08:00.002+01:00

today is Hh bday and yest 11.30pm, kw Jian n Hh stomp into my house well we had a nice nite and v celebrate both jian n hh bday together. aiks just when i tot that life is so beutiful something hit me down so hard that i can hardly breath when i saw that. Just one day and i'm feeling damn shitty now, the reason is something to do with studies, did i do not enough work or is just the fate that i cant get it. well seriously i dun know, cos it happens to me like quite many times, every time something good happen it wont last long. Cos it will soon followed by a tsunami that will sink and destroy everything including hope.

Aiks for once, i think i deserve better !!!

Wedding !!

2009-05-31T14:50:00.002+01:00

Haha congratulation Lim Siao Shuang (cousin sis) you are married!
hmm seriously i'm quite excited about this wedding because she's the 1st to get married among our cousins.. and sometimes when i look back into our childhood photo album, it feels hilarious to me.
well sat 10am start the journey to kedah reach there about 3pm (due to some traffic jam, it delay our reaching time) then 5.30pm went to SP (sungai petani) to makan dinner with aunts and cousins, at nite around 12am only sleep and the next day wake up at 7.30am to get prepare. Reach my uncle's house and went in to have a look at my cousin, she look pretty!! haha then snap a photo with her and wait outside, hmm the went to church for the ceremony and have lunch in a hotel. in kedah consider quite high class ad la.. Haha 3.30pm leave alor setar and around 9.30pm only reach home.. Haih the traffic was terrible and we are exausted. So i'm curretly waiting for all the photos and hope they live happily ever after !!!

charity

2009-05-16T17:11:00.002+01:00

yea today i did something great.. lol actually is shud be said as yesterday cos not is already past 12am.. whoa it was nice, the korean teakwando, amazing lor cos they have fusion a bit with dancing wan.. haha nice le i hope still got next time le.. 'ti-ratana international wesak carnival' hehe nice !!!
ohya since i'm the usherer, i need to wear the freaking high heels like for 6 hours and for your information my heels *the one i wear for prom in form 4* broke and this is only the 2nd time i wear it.. my fren say maybe i too long never wear ad so it kinda like fall apart.. haha
well nvm i think i should probably consider buying a new proper heels.. haha any sugesstion? i want nice and most importantly comfortable wan k .. hehe

recent

2009-05-11T12:24:00.002+01:00

well recently ppl say i emo.. where got??? i think u just see the tired side of me then u say i emo ad.. aiks i've been doing a great job of keeping myself alive these day and seriously i'm quite happy with my life.. nice classmates and all, hmm mayb a bit tiring bcos the due date of all the assignment is coming but nvm i think i still can cope with this.. hehe
today something bad happen, this is like the 2nd worst thing i did in my life.. sorry waikit, i know i'm selfish .. haih i think you'll need to do a lot of work without me cos i dun think those others will matter much to u isnt it.. aiks since i promise you i'll help you out, i dun mind doing double work, ask for my help plz.. haih 'bei ai' larrrr..

TAG!!

2009-04-26T16:47:00.004+01:00

cant believe that i've been tag and this is all ching yee's fault and is in chinese... WTH $%#^$*^.. but nvm i very good wan i answer for u la.. hehe

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01.你認為分手後的男女朋友還能做普通朋友嗎?
答：为什么不可以呢？

02.你最初但现在很难实现的梦想是什么？
答：我的梦想车mercedez sport car (dunno how to spell la)

03.最近最鬱悶的事？
答：生活好无聊喔

04.最受不了自已哪個缺點？
答：不知道，你们告诉我le

05.遇到喜歡的人，你是勇敢表白還是默默關注？
答：勇敢吧？？

06.說出點你名的人的3個優點
答：友善，萧洒，聪明

07.你現在最想擁有的是什麼？
答：把时间停止的能力

09.喜欢现在的生活吗？
答：还好

10.如果要被關起來十五年，除了離開之外什麼都能做的話，要做什麼(複選，生涯規劃亦可)?
答：睡死好了

11.什么人是你最欣賞的？
答：准时的人

12.你身边有讨人厌的人吗？为什么？
答：没有

13.十年之後，你想過什麼樣的生活？你打算如何實現呢？
答：答案太长，不想答

14.有想過放棄現有生活去流浪嗎？如果有，為的是什麼？
答：没有，我过得很好

15.如果中樂透三億會怎麼辦？
答：请保镖， MALAYsia 是很危险的

16.喜欢听什么音乐？
答：都听。

17.年終要領多少才算OK？
答：够我买跑车就OK

18.明天中午吃什麼
答：吃你。

19.一個月多少錢才算OK?
答：够吃就好了

20.最想到哪里举行婚礼？
答：嫁得出吗？

21.如果有想追求的異性,你想先跟他/她做朋友,還是先做情侶?
答：情敌。haha

22.有什麼不可告人的怪癖？
答：笑个不停，算吗？

23.最希望自己具備哪一種超能力？
答：可以自己影钱。

24.有没有暴力倾向？
答：你觉得呢? hehe

传给：‘其它8個人’

haha hope u guys enjoy..

Help!!

2009-04-23T15:50:00.002+01:00

well my emotions is killing me.. i dont like the feeling of 'angry' and i dont like to cry either.. can anyone help.. the feeling of angry is creeping up and is controlling me.. i think the old me will be gone if this keeps going on.. why ar and this only happens with the stupid hh.. wats wrong with him and whats wrong with me??? HELP...

friends

2009-04-23T14:48:00.002+01:00

well guess wat today i met margaret, hmm let me think, i think the last time i met her is in 2007 the last day of SPM whr we have account papers together?? OMG is so long ago and today she just appear in my college.. haha to be honest, i'm very surprise to c her thr and she's one of my fren that i think i have very deep memories about what had happen during our secondary school times.. seriously, i think without her i'm practically useless.. well i think we play badminton, basketball together, go tuition in pudu, take bus, take LRT, she thought me cantonese and a lot of fun memories.. i wont ever ever forget it.. and btw tmr i will meet up with another close fren that i haven see her for a few months perhaps, not very sure but one thing i know, time flies like rocket.. hehe so kinda longing for tmr's date with that pipoh.. haha

Life

2009-04-16T01:30:00.003+01:00

so sorry for not posting anything since.. erm dunno when? april fools day? life here in Uni is erm how to put it.. Uneventful? .. ya i think this word suits it.. i've been following the same routine every week until now that i think that seriously i have no life man.. haih tmr the pi poh will be having her last paper then she will have a lot of free time.. hmm i was thinking mayb i can ask her to come out and hang out for a while.. but on the other hand, the assignments pops out.. GBC 25% one assignment, BSDM one assignment 35% and MOB 40% .. and i'm not kidding all this is a big part of my total grade.. OMG cant imagine wat i gotta do with it.. crap i think i better use the left of these few days to relax and play kau kau before i need to start working on insane mode again..

april fool day

2009-04-01T14:00:00.003+01:00

well for those who know me well will know that yest is my bday.. yes is the day b4 april fool .. well today i seems a little bit depress not because of my exam but is my frens.. this friday april 3 i'm holding some sort of dinner+belated bday party but the main objective is to see my frens for one more time well maybe this is the last chance to meet them since only have 5 months left here.. well today i suddenly feel like my foundation frens are very supportive like janet she din even know how to come to my hse n yet she says she will come.. janet tq tq, it actually makes me feel better..
and so i ask a my sbs frens out on friday nite and today i receive some 'sorry i cannot make it' aiks dunno why i'm quite dissapointed cos ppl from klang can come to cheras but ppl from cheras cant make it.. i'm thinking maybe i shoud go subang thr n celebrate with my .4 frens only.. well at least i still have a promising yes from hh and wt.. juvy, kw, harri and i think mayb jin also cant make it.. then marg n lock lock also .. ohya yc and michelle cant make it also.. well i dunno what to say and i think i duwan to think about it anymore.. *depress la*

Race to witch mountain

2009-03-21T16:16:00.004Z

Hehe look at the eyes.. Very attractive hor..

Lol 1st time in my life i actually admire one actor after one movie man.. he's alexander ludwig..
not to say this guy is super handsome or anything (plus he's younger than me..) but dunno y just feel that i should put his pic up to share or more accurately as a remembrance for the older me to recap the feeling.. ofcos other than him i still got one more actor that i admire.. but that one is diff from this.. hehe mayb i'll try to post something on 'him' next time..
btw go n watch race to witch mountain is NICE !!!

LUCK

2009-03-06T07:30:00.004Z

well just about half an hour ago.. in tat particular few seconds i can actually feel that i have a bad luck and also a good luck.. why?? here's the story.. so today i went for badminton after my lecture and then attend the KPMG talk .. ok, is 3pm and i go to my car and start driving.. usually i use NPE to go home and same as today but today i just use the left lane since not much car.. and this is the turning point.. there is only 2 lanes and as usual there is one car from another road that is block by some red rubber thingy wanna illegal cut into this road.. ok no prob.. i din accelerate and wait for a while n c how lor..
then WTF that car duwan to move, nvm lor i step on the gas pedal and the next thing i know the car turn out and is like 2 car distance between us .. well normal reaction is to step on the brake but i'm on 80km/h and how can u stop that fast??? (this is the bad luck part) well i think i was a few inch away from that car's bumper and i cant turn out cos there's a BMW beside me on the right lane.. and when my hope is gone, miracle happens( i assume is good luck), the BMW suddenly accelarates and in split second i turn my car and miss by maybe an inch...
well i'm so very grateful for the BMW car that helps me and for that super old toyata sunny F*** you... u nearly cost me an accident..
moral of the story, even driving at a speed of 80km/h will encounter accident so dun say about 100 or 140 ?? drive safely and follow the rule !!!

-no title-

2009-02-24T14:28:00.003Z

I miss them so much.. sobs sobs

well when is the last time i updated my blog.. sorry to say i dun even rmb it ad.. well life is like sort of bored or put it in uneventful cos it sounds nicer.. haha tmr will be the day for the UniSA students to come back which means some frens are coming back .. yeah!!!

seriously i dunno wat to continue ad.. well today i met some of my secondary skol mates and it feels quite nice.. well sometimes i feel bad about lying that i dun have a blog, but this place is sort of like private space for me so sorry la guys.. for those who knows me long enough i think u will understand that i'm actually the sharing stuff person.. hehe

well but sooner or later i will inform u guys cos i wont want to left u here without some news or picture of me in UK rite (praying hard that i sucessfully make it to thr) .. muahahaha ciaoz..

寂寞暴走飞轮海

2009-01-30T17:54:00.007Z

綸：這裡的景色叫做曾經愛過

曾存在你的擁抱和溫柔
儒：撕開票根獨自重遊 oh~

票價是想念你的痛

你說做朋友並不是朋友
尊：我們比路人還陌生的多
綸：感情的廢墟重建以後
東：誰會偶爾回來走走
all：我站在回憶的入口蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落一目了然的痛讓我無法說淚是因為吹風
我沿著命運的箭頭無奈向前走到下個人的懷中
愛你還沒愛夠你卻要我放手誰懂在時間的秘密花園中
你從沒走 Wo~ oh NoNoNoNo~~~

儒：我說的愛你說的太自由
綸：自由到彷彿我只是說說
東：未來的風景我沒愛過 oh
尊：我只想念你的所有
all：我站在回憶的入口蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落一目了然的痛讓我無法說淚是因為吹風
我沿著命運的箭頭無奈向前走到下個人的懷中
愛你還沒愛夠你卻要我放手誰懂在時間的秘密花園中你從沒走

我的愛你想你都已極速向回憶暴衝他們能看見的是虛偽的從容
綸：我站在回憶的入口蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
all：赤裸裸的失落一目了然的痛讓我無法說淚是因為吹風
我沿著命運的箭頭無奈向前走到下個人的懷中
愛你還沒愛夠你卻要我放手誰懂在時間的秘密花園中
你從沒走 Wo~ oh NoNoNoNo oh~~~

this song reminds me of something .. OMG i hate beaches..

Reflection..

2009-01-29T16:37:00.002Z

well today when i'm sitting in the car on the journey back to kl.. i was actually recap -ing my life.. strange huh?? but i saw my life in many aspect from one lazy spoil girl to an active funny(or crazy) girl.. and soon i will travel to some very very far place for my study.. if u ask me 'are u ready' seriously i can answer you confidently i tot i was but actually is NO... this CNY holiday made me think of many things and some surprises also.. i received news that my cousin sis is marrying soon on this 31 of may.. fast hor.. if my grandpa can live for a few months more then he can be part of it already.. he will have the chance to see his 1st grandchildren to get married .. And we have one group picture taken in my aunt's house.. this year only my cousin sis is not in the pic cos she's studying in UK (which i soon will be thr) but next year we will have 3 ppl missing one is my cousin sis tat is marrying soon one is my cousin sis that is still studying and the other one will be me.. wow time really flies man not kidding.. well lets go back to the recap part, i was thinking maybe is not the OBS that change my life, maybe is the things i've been through..

For instance,
i dun look down on lesbian bcos i know how it feels;
i learn to think on the positive side cos i know thinking on the negative side will get what;
i've learn a lot from relationship (love) because every one of mine gaves me diff experience and idea of what is happening;
i know friendship is very important and i've learn PR skill..
lastly, i've learn that you must treasure every minute in your life because time will not go back and you will have regrets once you are recaping..

BUT, i will still be myself the crazy xiao xiao, the brainaic Esther and one of the Pi family yan yan

Muahahaha, finally wish everybody Happy Chinese New Year must get a lot of ang pow ohhh.. if you are in overseas must ask them online send the ang pow money to your acc.. (haha one of my uncle says wan funny rite, he also suggests charge interest tim )

random

2009-01-22T12:56:00.003Z

today i receive one photo from my fren and it is very random. why?? because it is one photo taken during some time in 2007 where i'm sitting for SPM and i think this photo is taken sometime near SPM trial ad.. and you c wat are my frens doing.. haih if parents know wat their kid is doing in the skol sure get heart attack wan.. haha

something funny come from my fren in a conversation about this photo ..

:: xiaoxiao :: > Life is full of surprise ...< style="font-weight: bold;">when is it ar?
:: xiaoxiao :: > Life is full of surprise ...< style="font-weight: bold;">close to SPM ad?
~SasSy giRL~ “犯贱！” says:
i dunno wor..
~SasSy giRL~ “犯贱！” says:
aiyo our gang, near spm or far from spm also like tat de la...
:: xiaoxiao :: > Life is full of surprise ...< style="font-weight: bold;">haha
~SasSy giRL~ “犯贱！” says:
do nth, some sit some jumping some running, some sleeping some laughing some counting time.

Haha funny rite, but is the truth, this is my class , u can c one girl lying thr like zombie drop dead ad others all walking around chatting, playing or taking photos .. HOWEVER, in this type of conditions all my frens in thr and my gang still score quite well in SPM.. muahahaha, Ohya did u notice another thing ?? the class is so empty .. haha dunno where is the others but i assure u, they are not in the library studying ... haha

credit: thx kit for this pic..

karaoke session

2009-01-16T12:20:00.002Z

hehe today went to sing k with bowie vicki and penny.. wow i need to say that..... is super tiring lor .. lucky i'm going back at 5 if not want me to sing 2 hrs more i will die man... so, finally went sing k ad i'm super happy lor and vicki also record down some nice video of us singing .. hope i can see those video soon.. hehe vicki show it to me ar !!! well quite lazy to write ad cos very tired la.. in a conclusion i feel very happy because i can hang out with them, they are still the same as usual... i miss my .4 class ... sobs, the class now is super quite i cant stand it !!!

subjects

2009-01-09T04:48:00.004Z

aiks college start ad n now i'm a degree student .. so fast .. i got a total of 6 subjects to study in 6 months... lol sound crazy isnt it.. if u do some calculation, on average u only have one month for one subject .. haha i know u cant count liddat but it really looks scary when u see it this way.. my 6 subjects will be ...
IFA - intro to financial accounting
IMA - intro to management accounting
GBC- global business context (something like econs)
MOB - management & organization behavior
BSDM - business statistic and decision making for accounting ( basically maths)
BITM - business information technology management

well this is not the sad part .. the sad part is i'm in group 2 and mon to thurs i hav class until 5pm cacat timetable.. now i cant hav any activities ad lor ... haih ... KI SIAO ing .....

college..

2009-01-05T02:58:00.004Z

well today will be my last day of holiday cos tmr will be my 1st day of degree in UWE, taylors.. i'm just a 19 year old girl and yet i'm taking degree already.. wat is all these nonsense, i think in the future the kids will take degree when they are 15 or 12 ?? sometimes i wish that we can stay longer in those times when we are so naive and playful (lol now i still am) but as u grow up the knowledge u learn also create a border in ur mind.. this border will prevent you to cross over to the unlogical/not scientifically proven/ fantasy part of the world.. ppl will become so logical in every sense and wats the fun of it if every1 is thinking and acting the same ... wouldn't it become very robotic like we are robot??? are we?? yest nite my dad ask me to learn those ballroom dance he says that its good for me .. well i din say anything bcos i know no harm trying wat.. but suddenly i feel that i still live in those older era where all the manners, greeting, girls are suppose to stay in home learn all those painting and stuff... wat a crazy imagination i got.. well i think those past years of 'not studying until it is nessesary' did the job of keeping my mind 'free'?? lol wat a description ...

well last but not least tmr i'm going to study ad hope it will be a nice 7 months just like last year with my .4 frens i really miss you guys.. and i seriously doubt that i will still get this kind of classmates this year.. 'praying hard' if every1 also study study n study only.. i dun think i can live past this 7 months..

p/s:
1) weili and william i still hope to play badminton with u all on each wed..
2) vicki i still wanna go sing k with u and bowie
3) this is for myself.. i wanna join 'aiszet' ( dunno how to spell, n cy i can meet u thr lor...) and sky adventure club this year
4) phine i might go gym le ...
5) stupid dancing lesson

OMG so many things to do .. but i'm happy ... muahahaha

mama mia

2009-01-03T16:08:00.002Z

on 3 of jan 2009 8.30pm.. i went to istana budaya to watch mama mia musical with my family .. although i dun think v get the best seat but is the most expensive seat that u can buy .. it cost rm500 per person and i think is worth it.. hh says that it is not that good compare to phantom of the opera and mayb he's right cos i never watch it the musical b4 but somehow in my opinion, i dun think u can compare these two musical cos is not alike .. like this mama mia it features all the ABBA songs in it and i think the plot is quite nice.. and the ending was fabulous !!! on the other hand, phantom was like other type of story that is old and sort of different era story so i dun think they should be compare together.. overall i'm glad that i have the chance to watch this musical since this show is the 2nd last show ad.. i recomment those who has a chance next time to watch this musical and experience how musical is like.. it will be very different from all those concert u go (this i assure u ) hehe .. wanna slp ad la .. nitez ...

pictures..

2009-01-03T06:39:00.003Z

nah here are the pictures and the above is the only group pic v got taken by a police .. mayb later will upload the video take so much time to upload so i sien ad..

new year countdown

2009-01-01T14:24:00.002Z

well today is the 1st day of 2009 n yest is the last day of 2008.. i'm quite happy that i went to countdown in bukit bintang.. that night full of crazy ppl thr and we are part of it.. muahahaha yang cher n his frens join us for the countdown and left around 12.15 i'm glad that he can join bcos is was very fun.. after that harri jian hh me cheryl went back to our hotel and realise that v dun hav the key .. sit on the floor of the lobby while waiting for ju to come back.. damn embarrasing .. well other happy stuff was the spray can, every1 spray here spray thr it was so fun... we talk throughout the whole night and me harri n jian fall asleep in the morning for one hr.. after that hh says wanna go back ad so all of us only wake up and went back around 9 n mamak near my hse.. went back drop dead not only bcos of tired but also serious stomachace aiks now still pain dunno wat happen to my stomach .. well wanna sleep now n mayb tmr will post some photo up.. nitex n sweet dreams .. muaks...

new shoes for year 2009 !!!

2008-12-26T05:28:00.002Z

erm this shoe i dunno wat brand but look quite nice so i brought it ... from taiwan

this is my converse i brought it to replace my other shoe that was spoil ... hehe also brought from taiwan

my new reebok haha nice bo...
lol this is suin bian post my bro's shoe .. nike air and this one also .. and1 basketball shoe as i mention in the last post

hehe the above are all the shoes that we brought other than that mommy also buy 2 pairs and daddy buy one new leather shoe for work and so as my bro dunno whether is leather or PVC but it cost around rm100++ for his school... aiks holiday nth to do so post some silly things here .. haha

Merry X'mas !!!

2008-12-25T13:19:00.003Z

hehe at 1st wanna buy this shoe de but mommy say too striking wor

at last bought this .. erm not exactly the same but quite similiar ad la ..

Reebok Freestyle Music Evolution Collection

hehe after 6 hrs of shopping .. c all the baggies, so not environmental friendly la..

hehe today went to pavilion to shop for new year's clothes .. shop from 11 to 5 wah damn tired lor ... hehe in the end i only brought one long pants from esprit (dunno whether spell correct anot ??), one short pants from billabong, one shirt from Tough and one pair of shoes from Reebok.. gosh i love the shoe .. haha now i got 3 new shoes ad .. feel quite bad bcos the shoe is actually quite expensive is RM299.90 .. No discount some more what m'sia festive sales is this .. apa la... ohya that day i make 'tong yuen' with my mom straight after i came back from jin's hse (also making tong yuen thr) aiks .. the hand wanna become doraemon hand ad ... well here's some pics but i dun hav the tong yuen from jin's hse hope she will post some lar... this is the tong yuen that i made with mommy ... oh ya didi bought one new pair of shoes also.. and1 baskatball shoes cant find the image in the net la so lazy to post .. is black with red strips.. imagine urself la hehe ..

女孩當自強 - SHE

2008-12-10T14:40:00.001Z

well i like the meaning of this song.. is very good for all the girls, we shouldn't be so weak ... gambateh everyone

拜託眼淚又不是鑽石珍珠
一直在哭難道你能一夜之間暴富
是誰告訴你有王子這動物
還不如你自己騎上白馬比較靠譜
失戀失去所有美麗的錯誤
快開香檳為你能夠死里逃生慶祝
沒錯就是不合身的衣服
趕快脫掉換身行頭再去愛裏跳舞
我知道一定有一點辛苦但我們的心都要堅固
告別了錯的人不算輸使我們更加靠近幸福

愛情卷起萬重浪 (越危險的遊戲越讓人全力以赴)
我們女孩當自強 (可以小鳥依人也能自我保護)
大不了受一點傷 (昨天的傷口會變成明天的禮物)
會讓我們更漂亮 (Top girl 都要做自己的救世主)

(Top girl 都要做自己的救世主)

看吧天還是會亮會再日出
粉身碎骨劇痛之後就能脫胎換骨
浪費時間飼養青蛙當寵物
狠下力氣自顧拯救全宇宙的動物
失戀失去一個懦弱的叛徒
快放煙火為下一次遇見英雄歡呼
沒錯趕快穿上更美的禮服
帶上微笑從從容容再去愛裏跳舞
你知道一定有一點辛苦但我們的心都很堅固
結束了錯的夢不算輸是我們值得更加幸福

愛情卷起萬重浪 (越危險的遊戲越讓人全力以赴)
我們女孩當自強 (可以小鳥依人也能自我保護)
大不了受一點傷 (昨天的傷口會變成明天的禮物)
會讓我們更漂亮 (Top girl 都要做自己的救世主)
誰怕愛情萬重浪 (越危險的遊戲更讓人義無反顧)
我們女孩當自強 (是最勇敢堅強也最溫柔賢淑)
不用誰施捨陽光 (好的壞的都是生活不是包袱)
我們自己是太陽 (TOP GIRL就要做自己的救世主)

T-O-P WANNA TOPGIRL
EVERYBODY SAY
T-O-P WANNA TOPGIRL

誰怕愛情萬重浪 (越危險的遊戲更讓人義無反顧)
我們女孩當自強 (是最勇敢堅強也最溫柔賢淑)
不用誰施捨陽光 (好的壞的都是生活不是包袱)
我們自己是太陽 (TOP GIRL就要做自己的救世主)

collecting dust period

2008-12-10T14:33:00.002Z

haih, next monday results coming out ad, damn scary .. but the scarier part is not that.. is now, what am i doing at home everyday is enough to scare the lion away (dunno what am i saying also) .. OMG, the symptons of becoming insane is showing.. sobs everyday wake up watch drama eat bath sleep again, dinner watch drama n sleep.. everyday like waiting for time to pass only.. daddy ask me go to his working place to issue receipt but no pay and is just as boring as staying at home.. arhhhh what can i do .. no no according to moral dunno what theory ad is what SHOULD i do .. haih lets hope i dun die becos of this..

description

2008-11-28T02:18:00.002Z

here some details bout my .4 frens

xiu bao - she's friendly and quite talkative... she's from langkawi
penny - penny n xiu bao always fight with laughter.. always for stupid reasons.. penny is very cute also.. she's from johor..
leeyun n hooiteng - well both of them always talk bout guys n i dun know them well
abigail - well she can say friendly but others dun think so and they say she's a 'c--k model' ..
visha - she used to crack a lot of jokes with me n ching yee and ya is liddat..
ching yee - well she's been sitting besides me since the 1st day.. i really enjoy for company, u make study easier n happier .. haha v have quite some jokes during class
william - ppl calls him a moron and he's quite sacastic n likes to annoy ppl with tons of question, from terengganu
ying choong - the dvd man with lots of faul language in his head
wei weng - the assless 'pa hun kia' haha
anil - quite a good guy i guess
nara - he has a very brilliant mind and very healthy as he walks ALOT
jennifer - she has a very high amplitude n pitch ..
josephine- the shorty boxer .. haha rmb to wear high heels so that ppl can c u when u r shouting behind a car..
matthew - the dirty face swimmer
bowie - a 20 year old KID with an interest in playing cards only
kah hui - the polar bear with extremely good skils in basketball and badminton, from johor i think
a fei- jokes supplier, he brings tons of laughter to us, from banting
michelle - sleeping queen, she can sleep almost everywhr
yang cher- he always late to class n claims that i'm his sis, oh well who call both of us also lim.. from gurun kedah, my hometown i'll go n find u during CNY
janet - the 'snap queen', always slower than every1.. from kuantan
vicki - a funny girl with good intention on her mind
weili - a pro badminton player with funny expression n tends to slap herself very hard on the face .. from terengganu
tzesin- known as the ballet girl, she gas grateful move but not when she laughs
siok kim- she actually the only one that is suitable for the age of 18
junloong- he's one of our zi mui gang.. well but now zi mui with ballet only... haha

'the last supper'

2008-11-28T02:08:00.002Z

yest was the last day of my foundation.. after acc exam every1 start to worry and ask how much is the cost of supplementary exam ar??? aiks i dun think they need to worry bcos i dun think so many of them will fail la.. after that michelle suggest v go to take a break for lunch, after lunch most of us sit at a place where there is sofa to 'study moral' actually is just crapping.. well moral is 1.30 hrs but most of us use less than half an hour to finish it.. then v wait for the signal to go out together.. well i went toilet and i c most of them is goin out ad.. swt .. after that, as usual gather again and wait for others .. and so v went carefour to get the food and went straight to matt's house for bbq.. the rain wont stop and every1 is getting so hungry that spaghetti and pizza finish is less than 5 mins.. and b4 the food comes i think sort of hungry until crazy ad .. the people around the table starting to crap and laugh crazily, when i say crazily i mean it.. haha and so the fun part of the bbq is every1 sitting around one small fire and burn their food.. yang cher n ying choong try to train n become ramli burger seller to earned the supplementary exam fees..

well finally the bbq ends with laughter n v can even talk n laugh louder than the rain *proud* haha..

pictures

2008-11-21T05:58:00.003Z

From left: Me, Vicki (panda) and Janet ( Snap Queen)
Me and vicki... both doing funny face
Me and Ching yee.. we been sitting together since the 1st day.. i'll miss you...
Ching yee, penny and me.. (without specs) panda say i look
funny with this face .. did i??
Officially presents the girls is black (GIB) haha ..
From left: Kumar's angel (penny), Killer Panda(vicki), ching yee, Me
(xiao xiao), and Weili (crazyfella)

Today is the last day of my foundation.. so fast one year had past and now on the last day of the tutorial some of us somehow stay in the class and took some pictures.. haha quite happy with it.. one of the pic is not on that day as u see cos the clothing are diff.. today got presentation, so have to wear formal and v.. the girls in black proudly present to you the pictures.. haha

R.I.P

2008-11-14T14:28:00.002Z

my grandpa just pass away on the 1.03am, 11/11/2008 , very easy to rmb hor.. aiks at 1st din feel very sad cos i think got some mental preparation ad.. leave kl at 5am reach thr around 10am.. reach thr and saw a few relatives thr already.. went in the room to c my grandpa.. lying on the bed so peacefully.. i'm happy but i still cried.. the tears just flowing out from my eyes without control.. my grandpa had just pass away .. even now when i think of him, the tears still will store in the eyes but i'm glad that i still can control it.. monday nite after receiving the news din sleep much and prepare to leave pick up my cousin on the way .. tuesday nite sleep at 3am cos need to stay awake to make sure that nobody broke into the hse after 3am my cousin's turn.. wed nite din sleep at all, saw some very very weird stuff at 4.30am .. one A Pak come out and wash car and after that watch tv news.. so morning the ceremony starts at 10 and finish around 2 something.. watched my grandpa's coffin went in to the burning chamber.. tat moment very very sad but din cry, hehe .. sunday nite my parents will be going back and monday nite they will br coming back .. my grandma will be coming to kl and stay here for one week .. aiks still rmb the last word i say to my gong gong is .. gong .. wo men hui qu la...

anonymous

2008-11-06T13:14:00.002Z

haih.. its been like 2 or 3 years .. Mr. A still ask me the same question today.. "will u ??" Am i that good that one guy has to sacrifice 2 or 3 years hoping that i'll accept him again.. But now the strange part is when he ask me n try to convince me.. i got a feeling that i shud give him another chance, not tat i want to but i shud.. cos i feel that last time the relationship shouldn't count as one because v dun even qualify as a couple.. so this strange feeling wants me to give him wat he has miss out for all these years .. OMG wats wrong with me?

I promise myself i duwan to start a relationship until i'm quite confidence that it will last but now y wanna consider giving chance to a person that most probably will go to US next year while i'm leaving for UK? isn't strange?

Am i worthy to wait for so many years, i doubt it..

miss..

2008-10-26T18:25:00.005Z

Aiks juz now i was chatting with my frens about the element of surprise.. this brings me back to a lot of memory of school days.. i miss the secondary skol days, where exams are nth, skols are fun, nothing to worry about, SPM juz a sijil paling mudah tats wat its call .. haha dunno heard from whr ad but is quite amusing though.. I miss my frens too.. whr r they ?? everybody is heading for a diff path and we hardly meet each other already.. i miss my 'nephew chai' n her gang, margaret, penguin, yishan n so on .. its been so long since i last meet u all was it one year already or 11 months ?? Time passes so fast, i dun even have the time to think of it then now is already end of the year.. another few months more and i'll b studying overseas.. by that time i really have no chance to meet up with all my frens ad.. sad le.. i'll miss all of u .. my pi family, the photokaki (jun marcus kit n etc..) usual party gang.. haha the usual party gang is almost the whole form 5 already .. haha cos the major race during our time is the chinese .. yea we are dominating and tats the reason y our skol get good result.. skrew the pig.. haha ( so bad la ) Miss ya guys ...

my car car is back..

2008-10-25T13:34:00.002+01:00

Hehe i'm so glad to inform you all that my car is back !! yuuhoo... but that also means that i need to drive to college ad .. haha actually i quite enjoy fetching by driver cos no need to wake up so early n can sleep in the car also.. hehe (damn i'm so piggy) ... so now my normal life will cont. again but with some debts.. (rm1000) 5 months of life with half of the allowance gone case.. guess i cant afford entertainment ad ??

p/s: to those that insist wanna help me to pay i DUWAN, DUN LET, DUN EVEN THINK OF IT ..
Hehe ...

accident..

2008-10-17T08:38:00.003+01:00

This is my 1st accident since last year june where i got my driving license. Haih dunno wat to say, scare ?? fear ?? angry ?? aiks for wat i know i'm at the junction looking with NO car n suddenly one car came out with super fast speed and BANG .. actually i'm not sure he hit me or i hit him but one thing for sure my front hit his side so i'm the one to blame.. well we talk through it and my car is a lot more worst than his and my car plate is gone.. so sad actually wanna go timesquare with my frens but end up going home with a crash car.. my mom going to scold me 'kau kau' as for my dad well he'll juz nag me a bit and ask me to b more careful next time.. haih .. i think i'm emo...

New Digital Camera

2008-10-12T14:12:00.003+01:00

Yesterday nite went pavilion for TGI's friday (dinner) with parents .. after our meal v decided to hav a walk and v pass by Harvey Norman so juz take a walk inside.. Somehow v also want to buy a new cam for our trip n for my later use.. haha juz liddat stand thr and choose for half an hour or more ( not sure) and v finally brought it .. Sony Cyber-shot DSC - T700 .. muahaha so happy le got new cam ad.. Oh ya they giv us a free pouch and a piece of screem protector thingy for the touch screen surafce.. our old cam is like almost 6 or 7 yrs old ad?? although i sponsor half the price (around RM700 ) but ok la cos later on i'm the one whose going to bring it to UK rite.. haha happy ...

results..

2008-10-07T14:37:00.004+01:00

aiks mid term results come out ad.. here are my results :
ACCF02 - 15/20
ECSF03 - 11.2/20
ECNF02 - 18.5/20
BSTF02 - 19/25

Overall i'm quite please with my econs results to b specify i'm quite happy .. hehe Acc ok reasonable la cos i din study much .. but i'm quite disappointed with my english .. haih i got 7.2/10 for the reading but 4/10 only for the writing.. so sad .. but nvm final exam tat part is only 4% .. now only hav to focus on the research which carries 30%, speaking 10% and listening 10% .. gambateh .. i must at least get a D for it .. cos i cant bare a C in my results.. As for statistic well i can juz say is silly mistakes full marks for everything but one part wrong all get a big KOSONG thr .. so sad ...

Btw my results so far are :
BCPF01 - D
ECSF01 - D ( with 79% .. shit)
ACCF01 - D ( stupid ind. assign )
ECNF01 - HD
BMAF01 - HD
ECSFo2 - D
ACCFO2 - HD
ECNF02 - D
BSTF02 - D
ECSF02 - C

haih got one C this is bad .. so not nice ad.. sobs

party !!!

2008-10-05T14:24:00.002+01:00

Yesterday nite i went to my fren's hse .. it was ejin's n brian's bday although their actual bday is today but due to some problem v decide to have it yesterday nite... it took my parents 10 mins circling the place to find tat hse when it is juz thr and we miss it dunno how many timesss.. so when i reach thr i'm quite happy to c some ppl thr cos it's been a while since i last saw them so i chat with some frens while waiting for the others to arrive.. we had pizzas, fried mee hun, curry chicken and BBQ for dinner hehe actually is quite a lot but the food still finish pretty fast and the drink run out very early so marcus have to drive out to buy more drinks.. yest is my 1st time try absolute vodka wow is very difficult to drink even with ice cant even imagine drinking it without ice.. stupid kit la pour so much in my cup.. well is quite nice la but i have to go back around 11.30 liddat they havent even cut the cake yet .. sobs sobs.. haih my curfew but i'm quite glad tat at least i can make it cos this will be my last time celebrating jin's bday ad.. next year i'll be leaving m'sia to further my studies by september so i wont have the chance to celebrate the other Pi member's bday .. aiks tat's it for now erm i'll try to post some photos if i have .. hehe

Raya Break...

2008-10-03T16:07:00.003+01:00

Okay lets talk bout my raya break... come to think of it, i actually spend the whole break watching dramas sleeping and eating.. wow sure gain some fat here.. hehe but nvm exercise more will do .. today i met up with my close frens, we all had mamak as breakfast .. hehe i'm quite glad to meet them cos its been a while since we last met.. you know when ur frens r in nilai, seremban, form 6, A levels and others they r quite bz .. except for me la ofcos .. taylors business foundation.. although now is already my final sem i still think my life is quite easy compared to others.. no tough syllabus, high grade pressure, not much competition .. i sort of live my live with waiting for time to pass .. well my english research still havent start yet .. hieroglyph is really driving me nutss .. kinda regret picking this topic but is quite fun in a way that i can increase my knowledge .. hehe when i step back in college next week i plan to have more frequent badminton and basketball game.. cos i'm kinda fat already ..

Diaries..

2008-10-03T16:02:00.002+01:00

Finally i've made up my mind to treat this as diaries... Since young i never had the habit of writing diaries because i dont think i'll will need it. ( or maybe cos i'm lazy ) but now... since my life has change since i step into the college life .. i might as well record down something memorable for me to see when i'm older or really OLD until i cant rmb it anymore..

没那么爱他 - 范玮琪歌词

2008-09-13T09:18:00.000+01:00

你有权利情绪化
你不一定要坚强便有些事情不能伪装
别为自己设了框
我懂失去的悲伤
也懂进退的挣扎
但想起过去都是失望
又何必要放不下
是习惯还是爱
不放心还是不甘心
只有你自己知道解答
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
编织过的梦想
自己也可以抵达
谁说一定要有他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

深呼吸抬头望
发现天空很宽广
这世界那么大
幸福总会在某个地方
其实你没有那么爱他
真的不需要那么想他
拥有过的计划留给值得的对象
你知道不会是他
其实你没有那么爱他
没有深陷到不可自拔
认清了真心话
你就放得下

Over You ...

2008-07-29T14:07:00.000+01:00

Now that it’s all said and done
I can’t believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of me

[Chorus]
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other’s opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me

[Chorus]
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I’m slowly getting closure
I guess it’s really over
I’m finally gettin’ better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you!!!

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time ago
And I never thought I’d doubt you
I’m better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I’m finally getting better
Now I’m picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

The day I thought I’d never get through
I got over you…

Curiousity kills a cat..

2008-07-26T20:40:00.000+01:00

Haha.. i knew it, shud have stop when i shud have last time..
Now i finally know the truth behind all these scenes, come to think of it.. I cant really blame anyone though; is my own decision, my own choice to pick this path tat is not taken ..
Haha i knew it would have alot of snakes, bush, torns on that path and yet i still wants to go for it..
And now.. wat i get?? is all the scars and torns around me.. There's only one phrase that i can say now " Curiousity Kills A Cat "

2nd ..

2008-06-14T16:07:00.000+01:00

张敬轩 - 吻得太逼真

无论怎么讲我都觉得虚伪
陪伴你那么久你说是受罪
从前到现在当我是谁
你这花心蝴蝶~~
昨夜陪你醉伤到我心碎
你竟说我和你不配
完全忘记往日为何
能与我彻夜缠绵
(和你吻吻吻吻吻
你吻得太逼真
让我把虚情假意
当作最真心的亲吻)
怪自己来不及区分
你对我是酷爱是敷衍
(我想问问问问问
我该怎么脱身)
你却说花花世界
不必当真
多么伤人
让我爱上薄情的红唇
拿什么心肠面对我的善良
能不能想一想你让我多伤
你的爱就像完美毒药
对手断肠你依然漂亮
不敢想曾与你度过
多少真实的晚上
一转眼热恋后身受重伤~~
(和你吻吻吻吻吻
你吻得太逼真
让我把虚情假意
当作最真心的亲吻)
怪自己来不及区分
你对我是酷爱是敷衍
(我想问问问问问
我该怎么脱身)
你却说花花世界
不必当真
多么伤人
让我爱上薄情的红唇
深渊万丈你把我的爱
用尽后丢弃荒野埋葬
你犯的罪状没人知道
用什么证明你的亲吻真的残忍~~喔~~
(Rap:我不知为什么
你现在对我毫无感觉
以前种种快乐
就好像成为一种罪恶
我的心情你不闻不问
或者其实所谓爱情
都只是彼此填满寂寞空虚
或者是一种冲动的幻觉
让自己失去理智到最后得到教训
何时有感觉到何时没有知觉
就算你突然失去音讯
你我之间早可能不该继续)
你吻得太逼真
我已无法脱身
喔~最后悲剧发生
我爱得深你没责任
都怪我太认真
把薄情的红唇
亲~~吻~~

1st song

2008-06-14T16:05:00.000+01:00

this represent my 1st ..
李圣杰-最近

你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
你最近不说话
怎麽了为什麽
是不是有什麽事让你不快乐
听说你最近很孤单
有点乱有点慌
可是我却不能够在你的身旁
你想要的
我却不能够给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
爱我却不能给你我全部
我能给的
却又不是你想要拥有的
我们不适合也不想认输
好几次我们抱着彼此都是想要哭
你常解释这样的一切都只是开始
我觉得是所有的一切早就已结束
不想再约束
不要再痛苦
下一次会有更好的情路
这一次我们都能很幸福

my 1st post..

2008-06-14T15:56:00.000+01:00

Dunno what am i thinking lately..
all this happens too fast and now.. come to think of it .. i'm too naive
naive in the sense that
- how can i deserve this
- how brainless i am
- and how STUPID i am

something too nice cant suite me at all ..
is it because of i dont deserve them or what?
is my problem i think ...

intro

2008-06-14T15:51:00.000+01:00

I dunno y i created this blog .. mayb is bcos i duwan to tell anything to my frens( dun want to make them worry .. i guess)
juz hope tat i can at least tell something to the blog..

Just Something ....

Friendship ~

Life~

It's Been A While~

中间~

updates

Lesson Learn

Finally ~

I'm Back!!

updates

Miri Trip

Memory Lane

Exam

Random updates..

20th Birthday

Time~~

Library nights again..

CNY

Confusion ??

01.01.10

winter break

12.12

Business Simulation

Halloween

Current Lifestyle

...

update

What a night

Bristol

TBF

Reveal!!

Hang Out

LooOOooNNnG Post ..

year one

feelings

haiz..

Life

Wedding !!

charity

recent

TAG!!

Help!!

friends

Life

april fool day

Race to witch mountain

LUCK

-no title-

寂寞暴走 飞轮海

Reflection..

random

karaoke session

subjects

college..

mama mia

pictures..

new year countdown

new shoes for year 2009 !!!

Merry X'mas !!!

Reebok Freestyle Music Evolution Collection

女孩當自強 - SHE

collecting dust period

description

'the last supper'

pictures

R.I.P

anonymous

miss..

my car car is back..

accident..

New Digital Camera

results..

party !!!

Raya Break...

Diaries..

没那么爱他 - 范玮琪歌词

Over You ...

Curiousity kills a cat..

2nd ..

1st song

寂寞暴走飞轮海