Help!!

Okay something is terrible wrong with me for the past couple of months.. This Monday blue symptom is starting to scare me.. Is already 1.30am but I just can't fall asleep. Every time I close my eyes many things will just pop out and no matter how many times I clear it off it will comes out again.

*sign* I never had trouble falling asleep but for these couple of months is been really hard for me to fall asleep on Sunday night and it is getting worse. Things in work is getting really bad as well, I have no passion for the job already  but the work load and issue is pilling up while I do not have any motivation to resolve it.

The worst part is I need to get through this feeling for a couple of months more until I get my bonus on February then only I can resign.

Seriously I need to find some cure for this Monday blue symptom, I can't be like this for long, if not I think I'll go crazy soon. I didn't realize how much I hate my job until now, the impact is too much fo me to handle!!

I need help!!! Teach me how to let my mind to not feel like this and survive a few more months then I can start a new chapter ..

Reflection

Okay so it's been quite some time since I last blog, to be frank I'm quite surprise I still remember the password and email. So it's almost two years since I last update so what happened during this time. Any guesses? Haha working is the answer. Well from my last post I mentioned that I think I'm not ready to work yet but still life's gonna keep going so I started working two months later after the last post, so that's about 1 and a half year of adult working life. 

Honestly speaking working does not actually sucks at first, I'm quite excited to learn all the new things that are being taught to me and adapting myself to the new working environment and the job offer mentioned that I could change to a new department after two years. So I would say things are pretty good, until there's one day that I feel like I have no motivation to come to work... That's when the problem starts to kick in, I know that I was good at my job doing all the process improvements n stuff but is still the same old routine stuff that I need to do everyday plus since I have moved role it only takes approx 3 hrs a day to complete my work and I got nothing to do for the rest of the 5 hrs. Seriously all these repetitive work and boredom is killing me, I can feel that I don't have any passion for the work that I'm doing and just passing time. Well most people might think that getting paid without doing anything is great especially my salary package is actually not bad. But why do I feel the emptiness inside??

I guess at some point salary doesn't really matter if something happened. I sort of feel like I'm being cheated by my boss. First about the lower salary group thing that she couldn't do anything about it, then suddenly she could promote me so easily, then she go and add another two years to the window that bonds me with the team. All these thing that happened just gave me some feeling that she somehow is using my trust for her against me. Anyways that's from my point of view, but I have decided something at my end. There's no point to continue to work for a job that I have no passion on, chasing perfection that is hardly exist and the thing that I couldn't obtain while hoping that she will help me to archive it. I've gotten what I planned to take from the company as what I have planned in the beginning so I guess it is time for me to take another step in my life. 

I do not wish to feel any regret when I look back when I'm old, I'm afraid that if I don't take the step now; I do not have the courage to do it later on because I have gotten too comfortable with the current lifestyle. I don't want to be some people there who would just chill in the office everyday and wait for the paycheck to come in. For my dream to open a coffee house in less than 10yrs time, I believe I need to do more to get the capital. 

That's it. What a nice way to express and record down my feeling, let's hope the old me will appreciate this. 

Ciaoz. 

Random thoughts~

Hmm it's been a while since I last update. This post will be about some thoughts that I had lately. When I started this blog I was still an university student and now I've graduated and just pass some professional exams to be a chartered accountant. Well most people will think is good that you can get all these with such a young age. But for me, I feel that I'm not ready for the working life yet, I just not ready to abandon all the happy things that I enjoy previously.

Looking back, I think even though I still maintaining a young and optimistic mind set just like last time but it just don't seem like the same anymore. As you grew up, you had to experience a lot of things that change you beliefs and made you more skeptical about everything you come across, this is the thing that can't be reverse.

As you are gaining, there are things that you are gradually losing as well. After my last trip with two of my best friends I realized that some things are just not exactly the same anymore, even though we are still quite close. This had made me think about my future. I've made a lot of friends while I'm growing up, but honestly I haven't been keeping in touch with much of them. Will they still recognize me? Or even if they still recognize me, people will change don't they; so do they still like to be friends with the person I am now? Hmm this question is just so hard to be optimistic about it.

When you enter the working world, could you still find people that is truly sincere to be friends with you, that doesn't even have a slightest thought about how you might be useful to them in the future? Now I regret not keeping more close friends of the past that are more sincere towards you.

Well just some thoughts and some updates for those of you that are following my blog. Hope you are doing well with your life...

Ciaoz

Friendship ~

Recently some things had happen that causes a friendship bond to break. Well although the friendship wasn't a long one but is the new friend that u made in a new place. We stay under the same roof, travel around Europe together, overall had a lot of good times together.
It is so sad to lose a friend over money matters. It's not like we are very poor since our parents can afford our overseas education. Just because of a few thousand bucks you lose a couple of friends and most importantly the trust of people to you.
Was it worth it? You know that we won't have that kind of trust to you anymore and most probably others too, Because we won't let our friends face the problem that we faced.
Well I can't blame all the problem on you, because you are just following what your mom told you to do. But what I can't accept is that you didn't do anything and just plainly follow despite you know is not right.
Hmm well is just too sad to lose a friend in this way. Now I finally understand why people say 'talk money hurt feelings' ..

Ciaoz

Life~

Hmm it's been so long since I last post, well I actually dun have much things to update since my life is so bored. But now, smth big has happen! I guess is another obstacle that I have to break thru in order to learn my lesson in life.

Well the story is as follow:
I have a friend, A which has moved into a place with me and two other friends but now A suddenly decides to go other place to study and leave us. Well the problems are as follow:
1) A still have half a yr rent to pay and feels that has no obligation to pay
2) V can't do anything legally also because the contract is under the 3 of us but A is not in it ( reason being: A is not a student and wants to avoid paying tax so A ask us to help)
3) If A doesn't pay it's part, v will need to pay extra £600 each which is quite a lot

So what can I do?? In the first place A is the one that ask us to moved into a house so that A can avoid the tax but now A is leaving us alone with all these shit. Does this person still has its moral conscious? Responsibility? Care about other people? Or people are just selfish, only care about their own benefits? What is trust? Friendship? means anymore? Is this world that corrupted already?

I have so many question but no answer. Should I not believe I friendship anymore after the age of 21 like what hh said? Those times that v spend together means nth to A?? The thing is A has choice; Manchester offer the same thing as London, there's no saying that if no Malaysian go to the center in Manchester means it is not good this is so ridiculous. I'm so sad and confused, people always say people change thru time but y does it has to change to be more selfish? I thought I knew this person, but in the end seems like I dunno this person at all.

So in conclusion, £600 can buy me a lesson; that is never to think that you know a person bcos ppl change and in the end it is urself that will get hurt bcos of ur kindness. I have lost faith in humanity, never to trust people especially stuff regarding money.

That's all for today then. Phew complaining here sure makes me feel. better and makes me forever remember my lesson as well. Also this can also teach my fellow blog followers a lesson, hope you guys won't have to face this type of problem in the future.

Ciaoz n take care.

It's Been A While~

Hmm, lately been quite busy studying and doing assignments so don't really have time to update this blog.. Well to tell the truth i dont have much interesting stuff to update also, as life had been boring and repetitive.. The only new thing is that i'm going to graduate soon and got a bf.. hehe I'm so freaking sure that i'll miss this university life (relax and chill, have fun and travel.. only hate assignment due period and exam period, Haha)

I'm 21 this year and my plan is to study ACCA for another then only go and find a job and work.. By that time i'm just 22, sometimes i feel like continue study for the rest of my life so that i can enjoy for a longer time, but i know this is quite impossible.. Working will be a new chapter in my life for sure, so i must complete this chapter (studying) with as much fun and laughter as possible because i knew i'm going to need it to remind me the good times that i had and i hope it will get me through the hard times in the coming futures.. hehe

Struggling to get 1st class on my final exam, dont want to disappoint my parents and also myself as they spend lotsss of money sending me here for a better education and learn much experience living in overseas.. I know i'm not stupid, so i just need to work this lazy ass and study more.. and hopefully i can do it, i believe that if I tried my best; my parents will be satisfied and i will have no regrets for the rest of my life..

okay.. gonna sleep now, nights to me; morning to those of you who r in Malaysia.. Good luck to those who r having exams too..

Ciaoz

中间~

为什么要执著于寻找你爱的人，而不把机会让给爱自己的人呢？

是应该改变观念了，或许感情是可以培养出来的...

updates

Aiks seems like very long didn't post anything here.. Haha blame the assignments because i seriously don't feel like typing anymore after typing so many words for the assignments.. hehe well life has begun to bored me again, nth special happen lately. Except that today i had a looonnggg chat with hh cos both of us just have too many minutes to waste, and a small chat with kw.. I miss the time when v can always hang out and "blow water" together.. lol

Well both of them reminds me that i just have around 5 months of uni life left, aiks i will seriously miss the time in Uni, especially in UK cos it's just so relax and fun~ Planning to study ACCA, conquer the last 5 papers and hopefully get a job then.. Hmm why must time passes so fast?? I wish i could just stay in my high school life and enjoy life to the most!!

I also figured out that i hardly keep in touch with all my friends in Malaysia anymore, the last summer break i went back was 80% of the time doing work while just 20% of the time to spend with others (plus u know that i'm lazy, so the 20% will have to take of 10% for sleeping and lazying around time.. LOL) Shit man, i sure hope u guys don't forget me, sobs~

Alrite i'll stop here, time to sleep~

Ciaoz and nitez

Lesson Learn

"Never to expect anything from anyone for free"

Damn the people that made me learn this, where did all the good people went? Hmm maybe die of extinction. Aiks, Selfish is what i must learn, from now on; don't expect me to tell you anything since you never did.

I hate people keeping things from me, c'mon even if you want to surprise people you do it secretly but you just manage to pissed me off. Great !

Imma going to play boxing with my xbox kinect to release my anger.. Whee~

Ciaoz

Finally ~

Hehe i know i've been quite lazy for some time, but don't blame me for not updating my blog ok cuz i really dun have anything to blog about.

As you know, this is my final year and there are so many things that i need to handle !!

1. STUDY (ofcos rite!!!)

2. JOB ( if i can get one, just got rejected from PWC Ireland, sobs)

3. Malaysian Society ( this is causing super alot of problem and takes up alot of my time and energy)

4. Some other relationship problems.. Hmm this can just leave it aside 1st

Life really will get harder as you grow older huh.. Why can't we enjoy life like we used to? To hell with all these problems!! now i miss Bon Jovi's song "It's My Life":

~It's my life

It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever

I just wanna live while I'm alive ~

Well i'm going to practice this more often!! Yeah and make myself more happy while i still can enjoy the luxury of studying.. hehe

Hmm y r overseas jobs so hard to get?? With all the crazy shit application form to fill it and so many stage to pass until you can even get an interview.. What's wrong with the economy? Why they need to make it so hard for people to get a job and increase the unemployment rate?

Another thing is about my relationship.. Hmm is not getting any better.. The perfect song that can describe my situation now is 爱我的人和我爱的人:

爱我的人为我痴心不悔

我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲

在乎的人始终不对

谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切

我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎

爱与被爱同样受罪

为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

Haha ok la maybe not that dramatic but is something liddat la LOL.. hehe

Ok la update until here la.. hehe

Ciaoz

I'm Back!!

Haha people i'm back in UK, this also means that i'll continue my Monthly Post in my blog.. LOL

You know sometimes life has a lot of questions that just cant be answered.. Hmm that bothers me a lot in these few days, damn that feeling man.. 如果可以i wish i dont need to feel that anymore, i wish all of the questions and problems can just solved itself..

I wish i can be very brave and just go and face the problem, but no, in fact i'm avoiding it (actually is running away from it) .. When did i turn into this?? How i wish all these problems does not exist and today someone in somewhere reminds me of something that happen quite some time ago.

I have tons of questions but NO answer at all.. WTF is this man?? i think i'm better off just be a nerd and focus on my final year study, it might make my life better and less complicated.. You know what people just like to mess up your calm and peaceful life you know.. Damn those people and please stay away from me cuz i'm so fed up and giving up making up to it anymore !!

oh.. i feel better now, just randomly express all my feelings out in this post.. hehe

Ciaoz..

updates

Some of you guys who know me well might know that i'm not actually those people who are very sentimental and stuff like that. Well coming back to M'sia, makes me think a lot these days. I've been busy working but other than that i didn't really do much, every weekends just rot in the house and rest.. Hmm the strange thing is I MISS UK life, the question is why? I've sort out of a few possibilities:

1. I din really get to meet much people since i came back, practically just 4 people .. (harri-once, juvy-once, jian-twice, kw-consider twice, Val, wk, tian hao, windy, chi-wynn and vivian) .. super sad case

2. Is it that i'm just too lazy to bother anything else ? or you cant say ignorant..

3. Is it because i'm too busy working ? that takes 5 out of 7 days each week?

4, and the last question i ask myself.. Do i have the heart to make all the things happen?

Somehow i find myself being very lazy and ignorant these days.. cant take up the initiative to contact my frens and to patch things up again. I miss UK because the life there is very straight forward, study and stay alive. Haih, wat shud i do? i'm so lazy to update the blog cos there is really nth much to update about my life. just work work work and rest rest rest.. Well at least i bought quite some stuff ..

Nikon D3000 and Lowepro Versapack 200 AW

A pair of Adidas shoes and a pair of new sunglasses.. Aiks leaving M'sia soon (20 Sept) hope to get something out of these 5 weeks..

gotta sleep, tmr need to work.. nitez

Ciaoz

Miri Trip

Thanks to the most generous Windy's parents, I get to go Miri, Sarawak for a nice trip. Waikit and Val join me for the trip too, I meet up with Wakiki also aka "yucky n wai wai" in LCCT in the morning and off we go to Miri.. Haha i can still rmb wk says that Miri airport is like Lego airport cos is very small.. LOL! When we are out, Windy and Val are already out there sitting in starbucks waiting for us, pity them have to wait for us for so long.. hehe then we start our journey with Windy's very classic Honda City aka "1985" haha

The whole Miri trip is about FOOD, FOOD and FOOD only, and occasionally some parks and beach.. Haha Marina Bay for the Huge Seahorse and ofcos our beloved Tanjung Lobang.. We had lots of food in Miri, i think in these 3 days we almost eat all the local delicacies in Miri.. All of us stayed in Windy's house and the 4 of us sleeps in Windy's room. Haha her BEDroom is really literally BEDroom, because there is only BED in the room and nothing else, not even a small table to put your stuff or a cabinet and wardrobe.. Val is quite crazy about WiFi, until she ask about WiFi everywhere we go to on the Facebook.. Hmm i guess Facebook really did took her life away.. Haha

Val had some great jokes about our sleeping patterns, and most of us do not believe what she said but somehow in my heart i know it is TRUE.. Windy u fart, Waikit u snores, well i snored and Val don't sleep so near to me! i almost roll down the mattress.. Sobs.. Haha anyway it is still a great trip and i swear I'll go there again to visit her parents, they are very kind and i like them.. hehe

For photos, I'm still waiting for Val to post them up in either FB or her blog.. Plz wait and be patience.. Got to work soon, wish me luck!!

Ciaoz

Memory Lane

Hehe the first thing that i did when i came back from UK is.. Meet up with kw, jian and ju, quite happy to see them again, seems to me they din change a lot since i last met them. I wish time would rewind and i could repeat my high school years again but i know it is not possible, but the memories will always stays with me forever. I consider myself as quite a lucky person, I've met quite some different people in this 20 years and some really gives me some incredible memories.

Looking back to primary school times, my first tuition mates are still in touch until now and i miss the times when we will all sit in the class and joke with Hazman, miss you guys hope we can meet again real soon. Then my primary school mates, although we are not very close but it is still nice to have at least a gathering each year to keep track of everybody's life. Moving on to secondary school, my secondary school can be divided into 2 parts, that is high school (F4, F5) and Middle school (F1, F2, F3). In Middle school, I've met some really interesting friends that teach me a lot things, and show me the real world outside my parent's protection. You can say that it might be my rebellious years because i really tried a lot of stuff back then, but hey it turns out i am a good girl.. hehe

Ok, now in High School. I made my decision to drop Bio and take Account after 3 months of pure science class. Well my life experience could be different if i continue to study Bio in that class but life is about making choices right, when you made the decision you will have to live with it, no regrets.. I change to a sub-science class and met these bunch of crazy friends, to tell you the truth i think that two years is the best time of my life till now. No academic pressure, what is stress anyway, by that time i don't really care about anything the only thing i know back then is PLAY and have FUN.. Met my best friend then, well for all these years she is the first one who can really understand me and i really glad that i met her.. My life had change a lot since then, I've become more playful, talkative and cheerful.. Thanks to you guys, my life has change to be more colorful..

Then, i come to Taylors to further my study in Business Foundation. To tell you the truth, the first day of school is quite intimidating for me, but life moves on and I've bond quite well with my classmates. Group 4, we are the best, we are the Future Billionaire and no one can replace us!! Oh well I had some great moments with them, YED day and redang trip was incredible. Although is just one year i think it is not short to me and we really fully utilized it, no regrets!!

When I've further moved on to year one of Accounting and Finance in UWE, again I've meet some great classmates. Our year one course is just 6 months, very short huh.. In the first few months i feel quite lonely, but later on somehow i started to mix with them more and we really click. Having badminton every Tuesday really helps to bond us more, and having lunch together too.. Study for finals and helping each other to strike for first class, the memories are just too great to be forgotten. Further on, I went to UK to study alone.. Come to think of it, i always start a new journey alone and it all went well i guess I'm just a very lucky person. In UK, I've met some nice friends mostly are my seniors, they really help me a lot, they can guide me when i have problems and they will also bring fun to me..

The friends I've met and accompany me with different journeys.. All of you, yes those of you that read my blog even though i seldom post anything up and those who will always remember me and those who wants to share their great moments with me.. I love you guys!! Here i dedicate this lovely songs to you guys, my favorite band ever.. Westlife- Reach Out .. Remember I will always be there for you just like you will always be there for me when i need you..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uwVLF7RfuNM

Exam

hey guys, i guess i'm sort of stuck with this 'a post per month' thingy which i tend to only post once a month.. haha paiseh ar, but better than din post anything rite.. hehe

So exam is tmr, for the 1st time i'm having exam outside on my own. The feeling is quite different you know. Last time every night before my exam i feel so calm having dinner with my family, watch some tv and go up have a last glimpse of the notes. Now, i'm alone it feels so scary maybe because i dun feel the family warmness that gives me support and maybe i'm just nervous for exam. For 20 yrs of my life i've never study so hard, dun mention everyday study in library for at least 5 hrs.. for god sake i've never study in a library b4!! haha ironic ya, how much environment can change a person.

well things r still quite dull here, i'm looking forward to my parents n my bro arrival on 6 of June, we will have a nice trip here and then; when i'm back to Malaysia, Windy Waikit and Val we will have a good time in Miri.. Yeah !! and i'll start my internship until its almost time for me to come back again..

Ohya after the exam we will have a paintball game .. Wee hope it will be nice, till then i shall work hard for the examsss..

Ciaoz

Random updates..

Okay so most of u guys knew that i had some 'story' haha, thanks to hh's stupid skype date we actually get to bond again.. well it gets me thinking for a while.. single or double, is it better to be with with a. somebody u like but he/she dun like u ? b. somebody who like u, but u like like him/her. and ofcos everybody wants c. both of u likes each other. Somehow for me, it's a bit complicated so i decided that i will keep looking for c. 1stly i cant bear liking someone else who doesn't like me, and 2ndly i dun think i'll accept option b. its too selfish.. so yeah, i guess i'll still be staying single for a while.. hehe

Exams coming, tat day i spoke with some frens, and unintentionally i mentioned that "stress ar, wanna get 1st class", whoa i really do care alot about results now huh?? i still rmb those time whr i dun give a damn about results and exam.. hmm i miss those time, everyday so relax.. Now have a lot of time in library revisioning.. Yaya i know 1st class is like a dream for a few subjects, so at least give me a 2:1, for the effort?? haha

ohya, i went Paris for almost a week, sincerely speaking.. i dun see why they call it the romantic city?? maybe the lights r too dim, so you feel romantic in the streets.. or maybe the lights are too dim u can do a lot of things *ehem ehem u guys use ur imagination la.. haha nevertheless, i gain some nice frens and accompanies in this trip.. jinyu jing chawyee jarik applelim sean grace neoh thecouple and also my beloved WANTAN.. haha i miss u guys!! hope to see u all soon..

okla nth much to post d, stay tune for more news?? i couldn't say it is interesting cuz i dunno wat is waiting for me in the future.. but yet i shall brace myself and accept anything that will happen.. muahahaha

Ciaoz...

20th Birthday

Hmm i can say is quite dull here, as nobody is here. Well at least that night milk n tse wei came over to have a mini celebration with me. Some frens actually call and text me.. Not bad not bad, but honestly i wasn't very happy but well i din bother.. Until just now i went to check my mail box and guess wat i saw ??

UWE sent me my paycheck and wt's card. Well at least i got a present from UWE (btw i got 56pounds, not bad huh??) wt card really surprise me alot, she really took the effort to give me a surprise.. WAN TENG !!! Thank you very much, i like the card alot, cos is special and unique.. there will be only one in this world and it belongs to me, for that i'm very grateful.

You see gifts are not about the price, is about the sincerity.. wt ur bday i promise i'll giv u a really big surprise !!! Muahahaha..

Ciaoz

Time~~

hmm i stayed up all night watching movie and drama, is it fun?? well hell ya comparing staying up to do assignment. Plz allowed me just this once to do something foolish, my life has always been doing the right thing and making the right choice, so sometimes i like to do something foolish to remind me that i can still bend or break the rules.. hehe

Time flies, i can still remember the first day i reached UK quite innocent you can say, just by the look of my face u can tell that i'm lost for quite a while.. haha now its almost finals and wtf i've been here alone for like 6 months ad.. wow is really very fast and the next thing u know, i'm flying back to m'sia for summer break and most probably doing an internship somewhere. Well life here wasn't easy but is not hard either, just imagine you have to come back to your room alone compare to your warm house. No one nagging you, no one to ask 'mii what to eat today..' and no one to fight with. In a conclusion life is quite dull here, well u learn how to cook and at the same time learn how to skip meals as well (bcoz too lazy to cook). 

LOL i still rmb i used to complain some of the dishes my mom cook sucks, now when i cook myself i really know that cooking isn't easy. Hmm had some bad times here but also some good ones as life is not perfect, when you receive something good the bad ones will come to balance it off (tats my believe only, ofcos). I'd met some nice frens here which broaden my eyesight, pity they are all my seniors, it would be nice to hang out with them more.. I kinda miss my all my frens back in m'sia, how to say, erm they suit me more.. haha i'm going to find my high skol frens. primary skol frens (some closer ones), secondary skol frens, foundation frens, year one frens and also dun forget miss low tuition gang.. haha i need to find so many people dunno got enaf time anot, cos i need to work some more..

Aiks i duwan to waste my youth just like this, as we all know it by heart, once you step out to the society you wont be the same anymore or in other words you CANT be the same... pity my seniors that wanna find jobs already, they must have been in so much stress!! These few days we had some nice skype conversation with a few of my closer frens, it was nice to hear their voice after so long and i think hh say will keep that conversation box so that we can chat with each other more often.. Later on i'll need to clean myself up and get ready for the UKEC fair in UCL London, get ready to promote myself in order to get an internship. Preparing myself for the event, gaining back all the confidence in order to attract them.. Wish me luck in getting an intern or some internsss .. haha dun be greedy one is better than nth..

okay to be honest, i have some stories going on.. since Mr. M i seems to have some firewall against those people that suddenly treat me very good. I know you guys would say that i'm over sensitive but this is my way of protecting myself. Anyway my plan is AVOID haha just try to avoid as much as i can and eventually he will give up (well tats wat i hope). I felt so sorry for the guy for i dun have feelings for him and i dont wish to waste his time, so i think this is best of the both of us.  Lastly, my bday is almost here, i hereby wanna pre-wish my 1st bday wish that is 'hope u guys will still experience the "Life is full of surprise" tag line i used for years' cos when life is dull, it will not compile and add on to a colourful album. 

Ciaoz

Library nights again..

Lol this is another sleepless night in library again.. Previously i spend around 4 to 5 days in library completing FA assignment. Now, is time for Law assignment... Well the due date is not very near yet, but i wanna to to Birmingham to watch Yonex All England Championship, so have to finish it earlier. 

I'm here in the library, but dun really have any mood to start doing it. So i thought i shud post something here since it had been quite some time. Today i looked at some of the people's blog, noticed that they had changed alot since secondary skol. Surprisingly, i feel the same as well, maybe i'm changing as well. I really appreciate the last trip together with kit, harrison and kw. You are right, this trip capture all our last innocence in the picture. We might not feel the same anymore in our next trip, thank you for the trip. 

Sometimes, i really hope i can stay the same, retain the childishness and happiness from secondary skol. But as you see, people change, the environment especially will make you change. CHANGE is a scary thing, there is a law that state if there is one thing that wont change, then it is 'change' itself. Haha funny rite but is quite true. I miss the time we did volunteering work together, it was very tiring but it was very enjoyable as well !! Gathering in somebody's hse was fun also, but kit they all joking around. 

Hmm, seems like time pass so fast, can i not work after i graduate? now i really understand why my parents said study time is the best. Once you start to work, your life will be very different, because you have more responsibilities and also WORRIES.. ok la i need to get back to work d.. 

Ciaoz

CNY

Hmm its been some time since i last post, well finally i have something very wonderful to share with u guys. I had quite a nice CNY here in UK.. EAT EAT EAT, LOL.. Friday night is MSA night in Shanghai Night, so imagine a place with unlimited food (buffet) who can tahan?? 'plus i din eat breakfast and lunch for that day' haha.. The off to Java for some drinks and dance, like the usual thing to do here d, after dinner must go for a drink.. This bad habit must change.

Saturday, as usual din makan at all, there is 31 of us so there is 3 tables with the 10 dishes set dinner.. The total bill is so amazing 641.85 POUNDS haha i think tats around  3 443.33854 Malaysian ringgits 'lol tats what google convert for me' Haha so nice hor the figure.. One night spend so much, crazy d.. Then tonight very good din go club, instead we went casino !! Lol, won 2pounds from the machine, enough to cover my bus ride home.. haha 

Sunday, woke up 8.30am and went to kakak Jean's place and started to prepare all the FOOD again.. haha our CNY revolves around food only, yeap it tooks us 3 hours plus to prepare all the stuff (u know la amateurs ma) .. Finally at 12.30pm we MAKAN !! so happy.. hehe keep and clean all the stufff, went back at 2 something can took a nap. At night we had a steamboat party at Kakak Michelle's place, it was nice and after that the usual practice came up, blast music in the living area (also the kitchen) and some play cards.. hehe then all of us went back at 10 something.

Okay finish all the fun part, so happened my audit assignment is due on monday 15 Feb, from above u can see that i'm busy celebrating, hehe.. Now behind the scenes story, every night i came back need to do assignment so this few days i practically din sleep more than 17 hours i think.. and for those who knows me very well, I'm a PIG i need a lot of sleeps.. so today, i'm practically half conscious throughout the whole day and i skip badminton cause i feel like a bit dizzy after i tahan until the last class which is 4.30.. monday class is 8.30 to 4.30 ofcos in between got break but not long enaf to sleep.. haih finally went back took a nap for 3 hours and wake up do tax assignment cos tmr got meeting and FA tutorials..

So here i am posting  about this few crazy days i've been through. Is nice but the assignment ruin it all.. I HATE AUDIT... babi punya module.. 

p/s: if Michelle and Jean knows i put them KAKAK they will kill me for sure.. so Shhhh dun tell them. and happy CNY for all my readers.. hehe Ching yee, kw, hh, harrison.. i think four of u are the constant one..

Ciaoz