Hang Out

Well yesterday supposingly shud be the gathering b4 i leave m'sia, but it was cancel. People always say if u lose something then you will sure get something, so in return, i get to spend some time with 2 of my fren harrison and Jian. It started out when both of them call me to ask about the gathering and i told them it is cancelled, then i ask them out for dinner (wanteng ffk me within 20 mins, swt man). We meet Mr Wong and chat a while with him then he help us to decide where to eat dinner. 

The dinner was quite normal as we chat about our life and some jokes, then they say very emo just sitting here and chat so we went tesco and brought batteries and some very funny jokes about trolly and the kids playground. Next destination is the Caltex petrol station near my hse, from there we decided to go my hse and later come out to watch fireworks. In between that, we chat about our future (mostly to help jian to decide about his future) yaya dunno y the 3 of us always end up together chatting for a very long period.. i dunno dun ask me. I still rmb the terengganu beach where other people nearly wanna beat us cos our laughter is distracting them the whole night. Those days were so nice, eventful, no stress, dunno what is the word 'study' 'homework' (cos we nvr did) 'exam' 'SPM' is known as Sijil paling mudah or murah. 

Haha those were the days. Now, everybody is chasing after their own dream (except jian ofcos) and the laughter are not really deep down from the heart anymore. No more CS with teacher and no more playing in skol. Every move you make will affect your future, and this is very frustrating indeed. They say they find it hard to post becos everytime you got the feeling of posting something is becos u r emo (true that). Well we went out and sort of watch fireworks, cos this year our stupid govn no money so the nicest fireworks award belong to Genting City of Entertainment !!! Haha .. Yup then we hang out until 3am in the morning, i dunno what we chat for so long but that time i really feel like i'm back to form 4 where we are all so innocent, childish and enjoying our life like nobody business. 

Thx for the great memories. I think i'll try my best to go out on 11 cos i think it will help me find back my old childish and innocent self. 

LooOOooNNnG Post ..

Hmm when is the last time i posted about my life, well seriously i cant recall. but here i am again updating all of you tat read my blog. Okay start from the genting trip, although its only the 4 of us (cos william got emergency stuff, so he need to go back) but i still enjoy it very much, for more information you guys shud visit Lisa's blog, she got tons of funny pictures and even video clips of us. Then she proclaim me as the guru of yoga.. funny cos i can do some tricks that the old woman (windy) cant do.. haha cant blame her cos she's OLD, lol if she see this post i bet she's going to kill me.. Well sarawak is having water supply problem, i hope she and Valerie are doing fine there.

Next, about the working days.. Well suppose i shud say that i'm super duper lucky to work there. The ppl are nice, they teach me alot of things and for that i'm grateful. Yup, tats about it.. just learning and experience new stuff. Then now comes the exciting part, the results came out. Wee, the results are expected, din dissappoint me or my parents so i'm quite happy actually. After the result is out, i call my dad and tell him about it .. ohya b4 tat the old woman(windy) contacted me b4 i wanna tell her result is out.. haha she damn fast la.. Now everything is settle, just need to wait for my VISA letter to come then can finally go UK ad..

Yesterday was an eventful day. I'm watching drama on friday nite and so happens becos of that i get to chat with kylie and harri .. with kylie we plan a gathering for all the old old frens and with harri i get a chance to meet up with him and kw. Then morning breakfast soon turn out to be a mini reunion in our SBS school.. All the photoKaki is back to school to help out for the photo session of the chinese society camp, the rest of us just go back to kacau only.. haha.. then after some time a lot of ppl actually turn up, and i met all the pi family members (ju, jin kw and carrie) so is quite worth so go back. Sorry for lock lock and penguin(shuying, dunno y i call her tat forget ad ) cos i cant make it to TS. 

Then harri send me back to my hse around 5pm.. Tat day was tired cos i only sleep for 4 hrs, harri bro's Myvi is super chunted man, cos they modified it and got turbo some more. We tested it while we are on the way going back to my hse and the thrill of it accelerating at high speed is so great. Well maybe is the super GOOD chicken rice+ the super Tasty coffee+ the super amazing sausage bun that i've ever eat, all these 3 food actually upset my stomach and it makes me lose my appetite.. haih but nvm at least i still get to see all these long time frens. 

Well tats about it, it seems shorter than i expected to be but hey, as u know i'm not so good in expressing myself not to say in words somemore. Just to be fair to those who wanna know whats happening to me, so i decided to blog.. hehe i think a few more weeks then i'll inform some of my frens about this hidden blog that i own.. hehe

Lastly i hope everybody is happy because life is short so you shud enjoy it so the fullest. 

Always rmb to work hard but play harder. Study smart instead of study hard !!

Ciaoz..

year one

oh well i just finish my exam !! YEAH, but this also means that i wont be able to see my frens ad.. SOBS .. haih pathetic la.. one week later i will be working until i fly off to UK.. and some frens r going back to their home some are working.. how am i suppose to meet them? hmm maybe next year, or maybe this christmas i might come back if i miss them..

Say goodbye to:
library boy
temple boy
noodle girl
Tower of Doom
Sexy girl (this is what she call herself, also aka The blogger)
and my other classmates

from:
neighbour girl ..

feelings

There are times when we have doubts with our decision and our beliefs. This beliefs that we are holding on is it really correct? how would it affect others? When a situation happens and it requires immediate decision, did you always made the right ones or the wrong ones?

Late at night or you might call in early in the morning, i am sitting down in front of my computer and all these sudden thoughts just came and crush into my tiny brain. And so i decided to post about it just to record down my feelings at this moment. Sometimes i will have some doubts about the choice i made for my life about the way i act, the principles and belief that i am holding tightly, and the choices i made. Well, is it right for me? or maybe i should change? well that's not a question for me to answer. Because one of the principle of mine is that other people matters a lot more than myself, i dunno where i get this principle from but it actually guided me for all these years. Now, I am sitting here feeling so exhausted and tired of what i did and what i am planning to do.. it just so uncomfortable.

Everytime when i had to fake a smile to people it actually takes up a lot of me. When the results are bad, the parents are not understanding enough, or even having a hard time with the relationship (currently single, so nth to worry about), is there anything i can do to release it? Well last time i used sports. but now sports is not an option anymore because i dun have my kaki-kaki that will accompany me. This morning i tried to study, the end result was almost 2 hours for less than one chapter. Never ever in my life that i feel that i am so useless, i have no mood, no determination, no pressure to study. The fear of getting poor results is not enough to push me.. So who can help me now?

So who do i seek advise from when i am in this situation? God? i dun think so. Parents? I never let them see that i have a problem. Friends? For them, I am just a happy child..

Life goes on with full of surprises and i shall not give up my idiotic principle and continue my life. Well lets just leave all these questions to my fate and hope that someday i will get an answer from somebody or somewhere..

A friend of mine just get approved by UM, she's so happy about it and i think she will strive till the end.. Congratz pipoh kw, now i have less things to worry when i'm in UK since you are on your way to a better future.

haiz..

I wonder why people always tell me that 'SPM is tough pre-u will have culture shock but when you get to degree it will be easy'

THIS IS BULL SHIT !!!

i feel like kena cheated kau kau man.. i got past SPM like normal only, pre u is just as fun as any high school years. but DEGREE omg is killing man, aiks the 8 to 5 class i had adjusted myself to it. the tough syllabus also can cope with it, but the final exam and the assignment is killing me. MOB please dun fail me cos i need you so much, muaks muaks .. (guess i'd gone nuts) well after MOB i'm going to target the final examination, for 19 years i never feel the urge to study b4 this is the 1st time and seriously i DUN LIKE this feeling. hmm is this wat they called stress, haih i'm so sure about it cos somehow a part of me is still having fun despise the exam is approaching.

People i may seems to be strong, but sometimes i wish i can be weak also. Cos being strong is taking up a lot of my energy, the ego and pretending sometimes is just too much for me to bear..
haih, anyhow i still like to qoute this " Life is full of surprises" so dun give up Esther/yan. hehe i'm talking to myself .. WTH

lol ciaoz.. wish me luck in the MOB presentation !!

Life

today is Hh bday and yest 11.30pm, kw Jian n Hh stomp into my house well we had a nice nite and v celebrate both jian n hh bday together. aiks just when i tot that life is so beutiful something hit me down so hard that i can hardly breath when i saw that. Just one day and i'm feeling damn shitty now, the reason is something to do with studies, did i do not enough work or is just the fate that i cant get it. well seriously i dun know, cos it happens to me like quite many times, every time something good happen it wont last long. Cos it will soon followed by a tsunami that will sink and destroy everything including hope.

Aiks for once, i think i deserve better !!!

Wedding !!

Haha congratulation Lim Siao Shuang (cousin sis) you are married!
hmm seriously i'm quite excited about this wedding because she's the 1st to get married among our cousins.. and sometimes when i look back into our childhood photo album, it feels hilarious to me.
well sat 10am start the journey to kedah reach there about 3pm (due to some traffic jam, it delay our reaching time) then 5.30pm went to SP (sungai petani) to makan dinner with aunts and cousins, at nite around 12am only sleep and the next day wake up at 7.30am to get prepare. Reach my uncle's house and went in to have a look at my cousin, she look pretty!! haha then snap a photo with her and wait outside, hmm the went to church for the ceremony and have lunch in a hotel. in kedah consider quite high class ad la.. Haha 3.30pm leave alor setar and around 9.30pm only reach home.. Haih the traffic was terrible and we are exausted. So i'm curretly waiting for all the photos and hope they live happily ever after !!!