12.12

hmm wrote this on yesterday nite but stupid blogspot dun let me post this...

today is 12 of dec, sometimes i'll wonder if we are still together how will it be now?? its been like 3 years since that day and alot had happened. Not something to be proud of, but it is a valuable experience to me. If i know we will come to this place and study together, will i still make the same decision? i'm not sure but at least i know since then i haven really put any effort into relationship. Especially wat happen a few months later.. 

I've learned alot during this 2 years, single can be very fun but also can be very sad. When i'm taking the train back to Bristol, i'm so tired because the feeling of someone to rely on is gone. Well cant say i regret, but sure it will be nice to have somebody to take care of you. Somehow when i first came here, alone, only realise that for these 2 years whenever i feel lonely i can still find him or her. But it is so diff here, so near yet so far. We are in the same country but still quite far apart. Will i ever find someone i like again, i dunno but at least i hope he does and the relationship will be successful. Hope he finds someone who knows how to be a girlfriend..