winter break

hmm i think it had been some time since i last update my blog. Oh well, lets write some updates about myself for those who care.. hehe on 17 of dec i went to Milan with milo, tse wei, hehui, melissa and milk, ohya we went to venice also but one day trip only lor.. hehe the temperature thr always stay around -5, so damn cold and yet we insist that we want to eat gelato (ice cream) everyday. But, seriously is very nice!!! It snows heavily on the day that we were suppose to catch our plane back to Bristol. Guess wat, we waited for the shuttle bus for 2.30 hours and hopped on to it. When we reach the Malpensa airport, we saw alot of people sitting on the floor and also alot of ppl queuing up at the check-in desk (before that we ad know that our flight had been cancelled, thx to my iphone.. hehe) Then slowly we start to line up also to ask for any solution, waited for another 1 or 2 hours or so, finally is our turn.

Know wat, the fella tell us the fastest we can go back is after Christmas (today is just 21dec). Then we decided to ask for help from parents, luckily milk's aunt help us found another plane tmr morning that still has places, so we went to another terminal (a nicer wan, for bigger planes) and overnight thr, this is my first time sleep on the floor in a public area. Haha i tell u, when u r so damn tired, u wont care where u sleep.. finally we caught the plane and reach london and took the megabus home. 

Rest for one day, yeah on 24dec we took a 6 something bus to london, we plan to stay thr for christmas and boxing day. It was quite boring thr, but still better than nth to do rite.. haha boxing day was killing. So many ppl lining up in front of harrods and we went zara instead. Brought one shirt for myself, it was cheap 10pounds how much can u still ask for?? then next stop body shop, brought a travel kit (inside of lotion n shower gel) so next time travel can bring d, and it costs only 3.50.. rush to burberry and wait for it to open, hmm wants to buy one polo shirt, after get permission from mommy my shirt got no size d!!! so sad, haih got money also no use ar 51pound i wanna buy also dun have.. sobs

Went back that nite and eat up the leftover cupnoodles.. haha so sad, we only eat cupnoodles on christmas cos no shops open.. the next nite we cook bak kut teh at tse wei's place, hmm it tastes not bad, next time shud cook again.. hehe 

i think tats all about my recent updates, need to start study and do assignment d lor.. today i sit infront of the comp for almost 5hrs just the complete the excel part of the starting of the assignment.. die d.. haih need to complete my CV also le.. so many things to do, yet so little time. Dun care tmr must go town watch Sherlock Hommes.. hehe 

Ohya everyone still have some MILAN INFECTION and GELATO INFECTION form italy.. 

'castello' 'restorante' 'bliglietto' 'toillette' 'centralle de milano' haha.. so funny and we miss gelato !!!

Ciaoz 

12.12

hmm wrote this on yesterday nite but stupid blogspot dun let me post this...

today is 12 of dec, sometimes i'll wonder if we are still together how will it be now?? its been like 3 years since that day and alot had happened. Not something to be proud of, but it is a valuable experience to me. If i know we will come to this place and study together, will i still make the same decision? i'm not sure but at least i know since then i haven really put any effort into relationship. Especially wat happen a few months later.. 

I've learned alot during this 2 years, single can be very fun but also can be very sad. When i'm taking the train back to Bristol, i'm so tired because the feeling of someone to rely on is gone. Well cant say i regret, but sure it will be nice to have somebody to take care of you. Somehow when i first came here, alone, only realise that for these 2 years whenever i feel lonely i can still find him or her. But it is so diff here, so near yet so far. We are in the same country but still quite far apart. Will i ever find someone i like again, i dunno but at least i hope he does and the relationship will be successful. Hope he finds someone who knows how to be a girlfriend.. 

Business Simulation

Yep it happen again, when things are going well and suddenly there will be a thing to pull me back down.. Well i understand that, but WHY WHY this time have to be my assignment?? 20% is freaking too much for me to bear!! I feel like killing people now, well can say is my mistake, i shudn't let them check the the touch, and damn i shudn't even let them know the freaking ID and password. Now, everything is gone.. emergency loan of 3mil, where in the hell that i'm gonna find money to repay that. The brand is not good ad, plus this stupid loan.. 

Ahhh!!!! !@%@#%#@^%$!&^$!#^!# .. Damn it...

Halloween

Know what I actually did quite a lot of things on tat day. Amazing rite, what can a person do in just 24 hours. In this post, I’ll share with you about what I did. We gather at 4.30am to hop on a 5am bus to Nottingham, to be honest in the badminton game I’m really pissed off. Shud have win the 1^st round if I take care of my body better I shud be able to win her, but anyhow I lose and I went to find wanteng. Jinwye’s bro took us around and show us how to get to the city, but b4 tat we had some nasi lemak in the Portland complex. Well we hang around together that day, and hh like “pai ka” a bit so he walks very slow, hehe it was a tiring day but I dun regret it cos I get to meet them.

Bus leaves at 6pm and reach home around 8.30pm, came back and took a bath went to suet ling’s place to look at wat they r preparing for the party. Din plan to put any make up cos I nvr like to put also.. haha but in the end when I wanna leave melissa drag me back again and suet ling put eye  shadow n mascara on me..  to be honest, I’m quite nervous when her hands are on my face especially EYE.. haha then went to ZEN with James, the cab driver who took us thr mention tat he’s going to m’sia the next day so we wrote him some nice places to visit. Hmm went there and becos sito they all not here yet, so we started to drink. The shots got very nice container like test tubes (for picture look at my fb) so each of us took 6 shots .. although is just 14% but still abit too much, haha din care so much and watch some show. I think 10 mins later we had one redbull+vodka mixer and smitoff ice (dunno how to spell). Okay after that a bit dizzy, haha text sito to come quickly, mean while I hang with milo, tse wei and sin yee to cool down abit..

When sito came they drag me here and there, omg tat time super dizzy ad still need to walk here walk there lucky they got use one hand to support me.. hehe I think around 2 to 3am one of the guys brought us chivas shot, lol I think I dun feel anything but sito they all a bit dizzy ad.. haha rest abit and cont. around 3.30 we decide to go home and waited for the cab like half an hour. Is freaking cold out there!! Ohya btw I jump queue when I go into the club, cos the fren (the one from shanghai knight) brought us in.. hehe lucky me. Went home bath, eat a bit so around 5am only sleep.

Tats the story in 24hrs, damn nice rite but I can tell you is killing dun do this too often. Haha and I think Milo and some yr 3 guys r drunk on tat nite,  is funny to watch them and a bit scary also but not as scary as those ppl who really make up for the Halloween party. For more pictures plz look at my fb..

Ciaoz..

Current Lifestyle

Hey, sorry for not blogging for such a long time. Not completely my fault though, cos life is pretty dry here nothing much to talk about. I even start to doubt my display name "life is full of surprise" haih. Back in M'sia i really enjoy life to the fullest but here is just so boring, especially during weekends. There's no other night entertainment here except clubbing and drinking, this just get uninteresting as time goes by. Really hope i can get more stuff to do in the future, since i cant get better part time job relating to my field of studies then i might as well consider volunteering. Well at least i can live my life more meaningfully.

Before i come here, i always thought that the problems will be homesick and culture shock. But now my major problem is the lifestyle, i feel so lazy here with nothing to do most of the time sometimes i can just space out doing nothing for an hour. I think i need a serious planning about my life here and how to live it to the fullest, weekdays are normal because pack with studies the only thing will be weekends. I started to join my Christian activities to fill up my time, i feel so disappointed about my life now..

Anybody has any idea to help me with it?

Ciaoz

...

Hmm nothing much to post lately cos skol starts ad. So just to update about some funny and memorable event that had occurred.  Well that day i accidentally got one of my white shirt mix with another shirt and damn shit the colour kena my t shirt ad.. tat day damn emo cos tats one of my favourite t shirt, but then we went to McD and beside there got a Next Clearance, consider damn cheap ad la so i brought 2 WHITE shirts .. hehe for 14pound quite worth it la, sommore is nice .. Okay the next event we went cam whoring with the UWE grass, haha very lame right but wat to do ?? 5 crazy girls go out is liddat wan la.. the pics will be post on fb soon cos is with ching.

Class is so boring although is just one hour, i wonder how i can last during taylors time where classes are TWO hours.. Haha anyhow our timetable is quite pack cos we have two extra subjects, GDP and Placement. Some modules like Audit and Corporate Finance got something call Clinic some more haih waste my time only .. Yesterday night Ching, Sherlene and I try to cook a proper meal which consist of grill chicken (by me), ABC soup (by Ching) and fried ladyfinger with cili padi (by sherlene) lastly we add one omelet. At the end, omg cant believe we can cook so well , the food is so damn nice and the rice is also well cooked.. 

Haha so who says first timer cant cook well.. See we prove to them that we are so good at this, so we plan every week at least once we cook a proper meal for ourselves.. hehe

ohya today damn sampat we all wear short pants and went out on a 15 degrees day.. OMG i can tell u is super super cold.. haha but its FUN !!

Tats all about it, wanna go out have lunch ad.. Ciaoz

update

haih today damn sad la cos kena some stupid shit from the PAL, nvm they will regret it. Now i only understand that people say never easily give hope or promise to others.. Cos that hurts alot.. well i'm sitting here in my room alone and blogging while my frens when out to party mainly becos i'm sick.. From the time i go into my frens room i know that i cant go out, cos the feeling is not right anymore.. Now i'm freaking coughing like hell, lets hope tmr morning i'll be fine and they wont notice it.

I dun want anybody to worry about me, nah tats me always wanna be strong, why? i dun know.. I told them that i'm lazy and tired so i duwan to go although i told them i'll go with them. I broke my promise and i know they are disappointed but what can i do? in this condition i cant go anywhere. Even if i did went it would  only drag them down cos they will have to look out for me, cant have fun, and wasted 5 pounds each..

hmm nth much to say, nitez everybody ...

What a night

Yesterday night is very eventful.. why? because i've learn alot ..

It started with just the barn dance organized by the uni and well 5 of us went to have fun.. and when it almost finish left me sherlene n ching.. Then we hang out with a few people there and when the bar is closing we went to a person's house.. And the fun part begins !!

hmm we played truth or dare with the rule that one truth will have to come with 3 dares. I can tell you their dare is very diff from our dare.. well i can say i'm the unlucky one, but still acceptable la.. well if u want some photo it will be on facebook.. 

Ciaoz..

Bristol

yep i'm here and seriously its quite boring.. maybe is bcos i dun have housemates yet or frens yet.. well nvm i think tmr i'll find some cos if no frens is very hard to survive la... Hmm it seems like i dun have jet lag cos i sleep very well yesterday night.. Wanna go out today but cant find anyone to teman me .. How? going alone seems very depressing and dangerous( cos i dunno the road).. haih where's the others? 

Okay nth much to post so ciao 1st.. Tata

TBF

Today i meet up with some foundation frens.. Well i din stay long cos i scare will get very emotional at the end so i just meet them for maybe 15 mins then ciao ad.. Weili n Janet's hug really make me feel very lonely for a moment. I never tot i'll be missing them so much, at least not until the hugs. 

Hereby i wanna thanks all the foundation frens, thank you u all for the happy moments that we shared .. The redang trip, classroom jokes, G floor, and lots more, i will forever treasure it cos i dun think when i'm back, the things will still stay the same. As law of Murphy said the only thing that is constant is Change, people will change in a few years time so i cant guarantee that we will be the same like now in the future. 

Thanks Guys !!!

Reveal!!

Well i think my blog is officially reveal to some of the frens that i wish they would know about my life when i'm not here anymore. Hmm i still hope that ppl dun link me to their blog cos i dun like ppl start blog hopping and end up with my end ( plz forgive my selfishness ).

Yiaks !! left a few more days only, what shud i do now? i seriously have no idea but at least i have a plan on friday, it would be a memorable day in my chapters of life. For this, i like to thanks jian and harrison for suggesting it. I really hope we can capture the last of our childishness, innocence, playful and carefree part of ourselves b4 it is gone...

I guess thats it for this post really got nth much to say.. looking forward to friday!!

Take care of urself when i'm gone guys!! 

ciaoz..

Hang Out

Well yesterday supposingly shud be the gathering b4 i leave m'sia, but it was cancel. People always say if u lose something then you will sure get something, so in return, i get to spend some time with 2 of my fren harrison and Jian. It started out when both of them call me to ask about the gathering and i told them it is cancelled, then i ask them out for dinner (wanteng ffk me within 20 mins, swt man). We meet Mr Wong and chat a while with him then he help us to decide where to eat dinner. 

The dinner was quite normal as we chat about our life and some jokes, then they say very emo just sitting here and chat so we went tesco and brought batteries and some very funny jokes about trolly and the kids playground. Next destination is the Caltex petrol station near my hse, from there we decided to go my hse and later come out to watch fireworks. In between that, we chat about our future (mostly to help jian to decide about his future) yaya dunno y the 3 of us always end up together chatting for a very long period.. i dunno dun ask me. I still rmb the terengganu beach where other people nearly wanna beat us cos our laughter is distracting them the whole night. Those days were so nice, eventful, no stress, dunno what is the word 'study' 'homework' (cos we nvr did) 'exam' 'SPM' is known as Sijil paling mudah or murah. 

Haha those were the days. Now, everybody is chasing after their own dream (except jian ofcos) and the laughter are not really deep down from the heart anymore. No more CS with teacher and no more playing in skol. Every move you make will affect your future, and this is very frustrating indeed. They say they find it hard to post becos everytime you got the feeling of posting something is becos u r emo (true that). Well we went out and sort of watch fireworks, cos this year our stupid govn no money so the nicest fireworks award belong to Genting City of Entertainment !!! Haha .. Yup then we hang out until 3am in the morning, i dunno what we chat for so long but that time i really feel like i'm back to form 4 where we are all so innocent, childish and enjoying our life like nobody business. 

Thx for the great memories. I think i'll try my best to go out on 11 cos i think it will help me find back my old childish and innocent self. 

LooOOooNNnG Post ..

Hmm when is the last time i posted about my life, well seriously i cant recall. but here i am again updating all of you tat read my blog. Okay start from the genting trip, although its only the 4 of us (cos william got emergency stuff, so he need to go back) but i still enjoy it very much, for more information you guys shud visit Lisa's blog, she got tons of funny pictures and even video clips of us. Then she proclaim me as the guru of yoga.. funny cos i can do some tricks that the old woman (windy) cant do.. haha cant blame her cos she's OLD, lol if she see this post i bet she's going to kill me.. Well sarawak is having water supply problem, i hope she and Valerie are doing fine there.

Next, about the working days.. Well suppose i shud say that i'm super duper lucky to work there. The ppl are nice, they teach me alot of things and for that i'm grateful. Yup, tats about it.. just learning and experience new stuff. Then now comes the exciting part, the results came out. Wee, the results are expected, din dissappoint me or my parents so i'm quite happy actually. After the result is out, i call my dad and tell him about it .. ohya b4 tat the old woman(windy) contacted me b4 i wanna tell her result is out.. haha she damn fast la.. Now everything is settle, just need to wait for my VISA letter to come then can finally go UK ad..

Yesterday was an eventful day. I'm watching drama on friday nite and so happens becos of that i get to chat with kylie and harri .. with kylie we plan a gathering for all the old old frens and with harri i get a chance to meet up with him and kw. Then morning breakfast soon turn out to be a mini reunion in our SBS school.. All the photoKaki is back to school to help out for the photo session of the chinese society camp, the rest of us just go back to kacau only.. haha.. then after some time a lot of ppl actually turn up, and i met all the pi family members (ju, jin kw and carrie) so is quite worth so go back. Sorry for lock lock and penguin(shuying, dunno y i call her tat forget ad ) cos i cant make it to TS. 

Then harri send me back to my hse around 5pm.. Tat day was tired cos i only sleep for 4 hrs, harri bro's Myvi is super chunted man, cos they modified it and got turbo some more. We tested it while we are on the way going back to my hse and the thrill of it accelerating at high speed is so great. Well maybe is the super GOOD chicken rice+ the super Tasty coffee+ the super amazing sausage bun that i've ever eat, all these 3 food actually upset my stomach and it makes me lose my appetite.. haih but nvm at least i still get to see all these long time frens. 

Well tats about it, it seems shorter than i expected to be but hey, as u know i'm not so good in expressing myself not to say in words somemore. Just to be fair to those who wanna know whats happening to me, so i decided to blog.. hehe i think a few more weeks then i'll inform some of my frens about this hidden blog that i own.. hehe

Lastly i hope everybody is happy because life is short so you shud enjoy it so the fullest. 

Always rmb to work hard but play harder. Study smart instead of study hard !!

Ciaoz..

year one

oh well i just finish my exam !! YEAH, but this also means that i wont be able to see my frens ad.. SOBS .. haih pathetic la.. one week later i will be working until i fly off to UK.. and some frens r going back to their home some are working.. how am i suppose to meet them? hmm maybe next year, or maybe this christmas i might come back if i miss them..

Say goodbye to:
library boy
temple boy
noodle girl
Tower of Doom
Sexy girl (this is what she call herself, also aka The blogger)
and my other classmates

from:
neighbour girl ..

feelings

There are times when we have doubts with our decision and our beliefs. This beliefs that we are holding on is it really correct? how would it affect others? When a situation happens and it requires immediate decision, did you always made the right ones or the wrong ones?

Late at night or you might call in early in the morning, i am sitting down in front of my computer and all these sudden thoughts just came and crush into my tiny brain. And so i decided to post about it just to record down my feelings at this moment. Sometimes i will have some doubts about the choice i made for my life about the way i act, the principles and belief that i am holding tightly, and the choices i made. Well, is it right for me? or maybe i should change? well that's not a question for me to answer. Because one of the principle of mine is that other people matters a lot more than myself, i dunno where i get this principle from but it actually guided me for all these years. Now, I am sitting here feeling so exhausted and tired of what i did and what i am planning to do.. it just so uncomfortable.

Everytime when i had to fake a smile to people it actually takes up a lot of me. When the results are bad, the parents are not understanding enough, or even having a hard time with the relationship (currently single, so nth to worry about), is there anything i can do to release it? Well last time i used sports. but now sports is not an option anymore because i dun have my kaki-kaki that will accompany me. This morning i tried to study, the end result was almost 2 hours for less than one chapter. Never ever in my life that i feel that i am so useless, i have no mood, no determination, no pressure to study. The fear of getting poor results is not enough to push me.. So who can help me now?

So who do i seek advise from when i am in this situation? God? i dun think so. Parents? I never let them see that i have a problem. Friends? For them, I am just a happy child..

Life goes on with full of surprises and i shall not give up my idiotic principle and continue my life. Well lets just leave all these questions to my fate and hope that someday i will get an answer from somebody or somewhere..

A friend of mine just get approved by UM, she's so happy about it and i think she will strive till the end.. Congratz pipoh kw, now i have less things to worry when i'm in UK since you are on your way to a better future.

haiz..

I wonder why people always tell me that 'SPM is tough pre-u will have culture shock but when you get to degree it will be easy'

THIS IS BULL SHIT !!!

i feel like kena cheated kau kau man.. i got past SPM like normal only, pre u is just as fun as any high school years. but DEGREE omg is killing man, aiks the 8 to 5 class i had adjusted myself to it. the tough syllabus also can cope with it, but the final exam and the assignment is killing me. MOB please dun fail me cos i need you so much, muaks muaks .. (guess i'd gone nuts) well after MOB i'm going to target the final examination, for 19 years i never feel the urge to study b4 this is the 1st time and seriously i DUN LIKE this feeling. hmm is this wat they called stress, haih i'm so sure about it cos somehow a part of me is still having fun despise the exam is approaching.

People i may seems to be strong, but sometimes i wish i can be weak also. Cos being strong is taking up a lot of my energy, the ego and pretending sometimes is just too much for me to bear..
haih, anyhow i still like to qoute this " Life is full of surprises" so dun give up Esther/yan. hehe i'm talking to myself .. WTH

lol ciaoz.. wish me luck in the MOB presentation !!

Life

today is Hh bday and yest 11.30pm, kw Jian n Hh stomp into my house well we had a nice nite and v celebrate both jian n hh bday together. aiks just when i tot that life is so beutiful something hit me down so hard that i can hardly breath when i saw that. Just one day and i'm feeling damn shitty now, the reason is something to do with studies, did i do not enough work or is just the fate that i cant get it. well seriously i dun know, cos it happens to me like quite many times, every time something good happen it wont last long. Cos it will soon followed by a tsunami that will sink and destroy everything including hope.

Aiks for once, i think i deserve better !!!

Wedding !!

Haha congratulation Lim Siao Shuang (cousin sis) you are married!
hmm seriously i'm quite excited about this wedding because she's the 1st to get married among our cousins.. and sometimes when i look back into our childhood photo album, it feels hilarious to me.
well sat 10am start the journey to kedah reach there about 3pm (due to some traffic jam, it delay our reaching time) then 5.30pm went to SP (sungai petani) to makan dinner with aunts and cousins, at nite around 12am only sleep and the next day wake up at 7.30am to get prepare. Reach my uncle's house and went in to have a look at my cousin, she look pretty!! haha then snap a photo with her and wait outside, hmm the went to church for the ceremony and have lunch in a hotel. in kedah consider quite high class ad la.. Haha 3.30pm leave alor setar and around 9.30pm only reach home.. Haih the traffic was terrible and we are exausted. So i'm curretly waiting for all the photos and hope they live happily ever after !!!

charity

yea today i did something great.. lol actually is shud be said as yesterday cos not is already past 12am.. whoa it was nice, the korean teakwando, amazing lor cos they have fusion a bit with dancing wan.. haha nice le i hope still got next time le.. 'ti-ratana international wesak carnival' hehe nice !!!
ohya since i'm the usherer, i need to wear the freaking high heels like for 6 hours and for your information my heels *the one i wear for prom in form 4* broke and this is only the 2nd time i wear it.. my fren say maybe i too long never wear ad so it kinda like fall apart.. haha
well nvm i think i should probably consider buying a new proper heels.. haha any sugesstion? i want nice and most importantly comfortable wan k .. hehe

recent

well recently ppl say i emo.. where got??? i think u just see the tired side of me then u say i emo ad.. aiks i've been doing a great job of keeping myself alive these day and seriously i'm quite happy with my life.. nice classmates and all, hmm mayb a bit tiring bcos the due date of all the assignment is coming but nvm i think i still can cope with this.. hehe
today something bad happen, this is like the 2nd worst thing i did in my life.. sorry waikit, i know i'm selfish .. haih i think you'll need to do a lot of work without me cos i dun think those others will matter much to u isnt it.. aiks since i promise you i'll help you out, i dun mind doing double work, ask for my help plz.. haih 'bei ai' larrrr..

TAG!!

cant believe that i've been tag and this is all ching yee's fault and is in chinese... WTH $%#^$*^.. but nvm i very good wan i answer for u la.. hehe

遊戲規則:被點到名字的人要在自已的blog裡寫下答案。去掉一個你最不喜歡的問題，再加上一個新的，傳給其它8個人。列出其它8個被點名的人，到他們的blog裡留言通知。被點名者不得拒絕。被點名的人將會得到大家的祝福(認真)，並且所有願望都會實現。


01.你認為分手後的男女朋友還能做普通朋友嗎?
答：为什么不可以呢？


02.你最初但现在很难实现的梦想是什么？
答：我的梦想车mercedez sport car (dunno how to spell la)


03.最近最鬱悶的事？
答：生活好无聊喔


04.最受不了自已哪個缺點？
答：不知道， 你们告诉我le


05.遇到喜歡的人，你是勇敢表白還是默默關注？
答：勇敢吧？？


06.說出點你名的人的3個優點
答：友善， 萧洒，聪明

07.你現在最想擁有的是什麼？
答：把时间停止的能力


09.喜欢现在的生活吗？
答：还好


10.如果要被關起來十五年，除了離開之外什麼都能做的話，要做什麼(複選，生涯規劃亦可)?
答：睡死好了


11.什么人是你最欣賞的？
答：准时的人


12.你身边有讨人厌的人吗？为什么？
答：没有


13.十年之後，你想過什麼樣的生活？你打算如何實現呢？
答：答案太长，不想答


14.有想過放棄現有生活去流浪嗎？如果有，為的是什麼？
答：没有，我过得很好


15.如果中樂透三億會怎麼辦？
答：请保镖， MALAYsia 是很危险的


16.喜欢听什么音乐？
答：都听。


17.年終要領多少才算OK？
答：够我买跑车就OK


18.明天中午吃什麼
答：吃你。


19.一個月多少錢才算OK?
答：够吃就好了


20.最想到哪里举行婚礼？
答：嫁得出吗？


21.如果有想追求的異性,你想先跟他/她做朋友,還是先做情侶?
答：情敌。haha


22.有什麼不可告人的怪癖？
答：笑个不停，算吗？

23.最希望自己具備哪一種超能力？
答：可以自己影钱。


24.有没有暴力倾向？
答：你觉得呢? hehe

传给：‘其它8個人’

haha hope u guys enjoy..

Help!!

well my emotions is killing me.. i dont like the feeling of 'angry' and i dont like to cry either.. can anyone help.. the feeling of angry is creeping up and is controlling me.. i think the old me will be gone if this keeps going on.. why ar and this only happens with the stupid hh.. wats wrong with him and whats wrong with me??? HELP...

friends

well guess wat today i met margaret, hmm let me think, i think the last time i met her is in 2007 the last day of SPM whr we have account papers together?? OMG is so long ago and today she just appear in my college.. haha to be honest, i'm very surprise to c her thr and she's one of my fren that i think i have very deep memories about what had happen during our secondary school times.. seriously, i think without her i'm practically useless.. well i think we play badminton, basketball together, go tuition in pudu, take bus, take LRT, she thought me cantonese and a lot of fun memories.. i wont ever ever forget it.. and btw tmr i will meet up with another close fren that i haven see her for a few months perhaps, not very sure but one thing i know, time flies like rocket.. hehe so kinda longing for tmr's date with that pipoh.. haha

Life

so sorry for not posting anything since.. erm dunno when? april fools day? life here in Uni is erm how to put it.. Uneventful? .. ya i think this word suits it.. i've been following the same routine every week until now that i think that seriously i have no life man.. haih tmr the pi poh will be having her last paper then she will have a lot of free time.. hmm i was thinking mayb i can ask her to come out and hang out for a while.. but on the other hand, the assignments pops out.. GBC 25% one assignment, BSDM one assignment 35% and MOB 40% .. and i'm not kidding all this is a big part of my total grade.. OMG cant imagine wat i gotta do with it.. crap i think i better use the left of these few days to relax and play kau kau before i need to start working on insane mode again..

april fool day

well for those who know me well will know that yest is my bday.. yes is the day b4 april fool .. well today i seems a little bit depress not because of my exam but is my frens.. this friday april 3 i'm holding some sort of dinner+belated bday party but the main objective is to see my frens for one more time well maybe this is the last chance to meet them since only have 5 months left here.. well today i suddenly feel like my foundation frens are very supportive like janet she din even know how to come to my hse n yet she says she will come.. janet tq tq, it actually makes me feel better..
and so i ask a my sbs frens out on friday nite and today i receive some 'sorry i cannot make it' aiks dunno why i'm quite dissapointed cos ppl from klang can come to cheras but ppl from cheras cant make it.. i'm thinking maybe i shoud go subang thr n celebrate with my .4 frens only.. well at least i still have a promising yes from hh and wt.. juvy, kw, harri and i think mayb jin also cant make it.. then marg n lock lock also .. ohya yc and michelle cant make it also.. well i dunno what to say and i think i duwan to think about it anymore.. *depress la*

Race to witch mountain

Hehe look at the eyes.. Very attractive hor..

Lol 1st time in my life i actually admire one actor after one movie man.. he's alexander ludwig..
not to say this guy is super handsome or anything (plus he's younger than me..) but dunno y just feel that i should put his pic up to share or more accurately as a remembrance for the older me to recap the feeling.. ofcos other than him i still got one more actor that i admire.. but that one is diff from this.. hehe mayb i'll try to post something on 'him' next time..
btw go n watch race to witch mountain is NICE !!!

LUCK

well just about half an hour ago.. in tat particular few seconds i can actually feel that i have a bad luck and also a good luck.. why?? here's the story.. so today i went for badminton after my lecture and then attend the KPMG talk .. ok, is 3pm and i go to my car and start driving.. usually i use NPE to go home and same as today but today i just use the left lane since not much car.. and this is the turning point.. there is only 2 lanes and as usual there is one car from another road that is block by some red rubber thingy wanna illegal cut into this road.. ok no prob.. i din accelerate and wait for a while n c how lor..
then WTF that car duwan to move, nvm lor i step on the gas pedal and the next thing i know the car turn out and is like 2 car distance between us .. well normal reaction is to step on the brake but i'm on 80km/h and how can u stop that fast??? (this is the bad luck part) well i think i was a few inch away from that car's bumper and i cant turn out cos there's a BMW beside me on the right lane.. and when my hope is gone, miracle happens( i assume is good luck), the BMW suddenly accelarates and in split second i turn my car and miss by maybe an inch...
well i'm so very grateful for the BMW car that helps me and for that super old toyata sunny F*** you... u nearly cost me an accident..
moral of the story, even driving at a speed of 80km/h will encounter accident so dun say about 100 or 140 ?? drive safely and follow the rule !!!

-no title-

I miss them so much.. sobs sobs

well when is the last time i updated my blog.. sorry to say i dun even rmb it ad.. well life is like sort of bored or put it in uneventful cos it sounds nicer.. haha tmr will be the day for the UniSA students to come back which means some frens are coming back .. yeah!!!

seriously i dunno wat to continue ad.. well today i met some of my secondary skol mates and it feels quite nice.. well sometimes i feel bad about lying that i dun have a blog, but this place is sort of like private space for me so sorry la guys.. for those who knows me long enough i think u will understand that i'm actually the sharing stuff person.. hehe

well but sooner or later i will inform u guys cos i wont want to left u here without some news or picture of me in UK rite (praying hard that i sucessfully make it to thr) .. muahahaha ciaoz..

寂寞暴走 飞轮海

綸：這裡的景色叫做曾經愛過

曾存在你的擁抱和溫柔
儒：撕開票根獨自重遊 oh~

票價是想念你的痛

你說做朋友並不是朋友
尊：我們比路人還陌生的多
綸：感情的廢墟重建以後
東：誰會偶爾回來走走
all：我站在回憶的入口 蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛 讓我無法說淚是因為吹風
我沿著命運的箭頭 無奈向前走到下個人的懷中
愛你還沒愛夠 你卻要我放手 誰懂在時間的秘密花園中
你從沒走 Wo~ oh NoNoNoNo~~~

儒：我說的愛你說的太自由
綸：自由到彷彿我只是說說
東：未來的風景我沒愛過 oh
尊：我只想念你的所有
all：我站在回憶的入口 蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛 讓我無法說淚是因為吹風
我沿著命運的箭頭 無奈向前走到下個人的懷中
愛你還沒愛夠 你卻要我放手 誰懂在時間的秘密花園中 你從沒走

我的愛你想你 都已極速向回憶暴衝 他們能看見的是虛偽的從容
綸：我站在回憶的入口 蒐集我左胸口暴走的寂寞
all：赤裸裸的失落 一目了然的痛 讓我無法說淚是因為吹風
我沿著命運的箭頭 無奈向前走到下個人的懷中
愛你還沒愛夠 你卻要我放手 誰懂在時間的秘密花園中
你從沒走 Wo~ oh NoNoNoNo oh~~~

this song reminds me of something .. OMG i hate beaches..

Reflection..

well today when i'm sitting in the car on the journey back to kl.. i was actually recap -ing my life.. strange huh?? but i saw my life in many aspect from one lazy spoil girl to an active funny(or crazy) girl.. and soon i will travel to some very very far place for my study.. if u ask me 'are u ready' seriously i can answer you confidently i tot i was but actually is NO... this CNY holiday made me think of many things and some surprises also.. i received news that my cousin sis is marrying soon on this 31 of may.. fast hor.. if my grandpa can live for a few months more then he can be part of it already.. he will have the chance to see his 1st grandchildren to get married .. And we have one group picture taken in my aunt's house.. this year only my cousin sis is not in the pic cos she's studying in UK (which i soon will be thr) but next year we will have 3 ppl missing one is my cousin sis tat is marrying soon one is my cousin sis that is still studying and the other one will be me.. wow time really flies man not kidding.. well lets go back to the recap part, i was thinking maybe is not the OBS that change my life, maybe is the things i've been through..

For instance,
i dun look down on lesbian bcos i know how it feels;
i learn to think on the positive side cos i know thinking on the negative side will get what;
i've learn a lot from relationship (love) because every one of mine gaves me diff experience and idea of what is happening;
i know friendship is very important and i've learn PR skill..
lastly, i've learn that you must treasure every minute in your life because time will not go back and you will have regrets once you are recaping..

BUT, i will still be myself the crazy xiao xiao, the brainaic Esther and one of the Pi family yan yan

Muahahaha, finally wish everybody Happy Chinese New Year must get a lot of ang pow ohhh.. if you are in overseas must ask them online send the ang pow money to your acc.. (haha one of my uncle says wan funny rite, he also suggests charge interest tim )

random

today i receive one photo from my fren and it is very random. why?? because it is one photo taken during some time in 2007 where i'm sitting for SPM and i think this photo is taken sometime near SPM trial ad.. and you c wat are my frens doing.. haih if parents know wat their kid is doing in the skol sure get heart attack wan.. haha

something funny come from my fren in a conversation about this photo ..

:: xiaoxiao :: > Life is full of surprise ...< style="font-weight: bold;">when is it ar?
:: xiaoxiao :: > Life is full of surprise ...< style="font-weight: bold;">close to SPM ad?
~SasSy giRL~ “犯贱！” says:
i dunno wor..
~SasSy giRL~ “犯贱！” says:
aiyo our gang, near spm or far from spm also like tat de la...
:: xiaoxiao :: > Life is full of surprise ...< style="font-weight: bold;">haha
~SasSy giRL~ “犯贱！” says:
do nth, some sit some jumping some running, some sleeping some laughing some counting time.

Haha funny rite, but is the truth, this is my class , u can c one girl lying thr like zombie drop dead ad others all walking around chatting, playing or taking photos .. HOWEVER, in this type of conditions all my frens in thr and my gang still score quite well in SPM.. muahahaha, Ohya did u notice another thing ?? the class is so empty .. haha dunno where is the others but i assure u, they are not in the library studying ... haha

credit: thx kit for this pic..

karaoke session

hehe today went to sing k with bowie vicki and penny.. wow i need to say that..... is super tiring lor .. lucky i'm going back at 5 if not want me to sing 2 hrs more i will die man... so, finally went sing k ad i'm super happy lor and vicki also record down some nice video of us singing .. hope i can see those video soon.. hehe vicki show it to me ar !!! well quite lazy to write ad cos very tired la.. in a conclusion i feel very happy because i can hang out with them, they are still the same as usual... i miss my .4 class ... sobs, the class now is super quite i cant stand it !!!

subjects

aiks college start ad n now i'm a degree student .. so fast .. i got a total of 6 subjects to study in 6 months... lol sound crazy isnt it.. if u do some calculation, on average u only have one month for one subject .. haha i know u cant count liddat but it really looks scary when u see it this way.. my 6 subjects will be ...
IFA - intro to financial accounting
IMA - intro to management accounting
GBC- global business context (something like econs)
MOB - management & organization behavior
BSDM - business statistic and decision making for accounting ( basically maths)
BITM - business information technology management

well this is not the sad part .. the sad part is i'm in group 2 and mon to thurs i hav class until 5pm cacat timetable.. now i cant hav any activities ad lor ... haih ... KI SIAO ing .....

college..

well today will be my last day of holiday cos tmr will be my 1st day of degree in UWE, taylors.. i'm just a 19 year old girl and yet i'm taking degree already.. wat is all these nonsense, i think in the future the kids will take degree when they are 15 or 12 ?? sometimes i wish that we can stay longer in those times when we are so naive and playful (lol now i still am) but as u grow up the knowledge u learn also create a border in ur mind.. this border will prevent you to cross over to the unlogical/not scientifically proven/ fantasy part of the world.. ppl will become so logical in every sense and wats the fun of it if every1 is thinking and acting the same ... wouldn't it become very robotic like we are robot??? are we?? yest nite my dad ask me to learn those ballroom dance he says that its good for me .. well i din say anything bcos i know no harm trying wat.. but suddenly i feel that i still live in those older era where all the manners, greeting, girls are suppose to stay in home learn all those painting and stuff... wat a crazy imagination i got.. well i think those past years of 'not studying until it is nessesary' did the job of keeping my mind 'free'?? lol wat a description ...

well last but not least tmr i'm going to study ad hope it will be a nice 7 months just like last year with my .4 frens i really miss you guys.. and i seriously doubt that i will still get this kind of classmates this year.. 'praying hard' if every1 also study study n study only.. i dun think i can live past this 7 months..

p/s:
1) weili and william i still hope to play badminton with u all on each wed..
2) vicki i still wanna go sing k with u and bowie
3) this is for myself.. i wanna join 'aiszet' ( dunno how to spell, n cy i can meet u thr lor...) and sky adventure club this year
4) phine i might go gym le ...
5) stupid dancing lesson

OMG so many things to do .. but i'm happy ... muahahaha

mama mia

on 3 of jan 2009 8.30pm.. i went to istana budaya to watch mama mia musical with my family .. although i dun think v get the best seat but is the most expensive seat that u can buy .. it cost rm500 per person and i think is worth it.. hh says that it is not that good compare to phantom of the opera and mayb he's right cos i never watch it the musical b4 but somehow in my opinion, i dun think u can compare these two musical cos is not alike .. like this mama mia it features all the ABBA songs in it and i think the plot is quite nice.. and the ending was fabulous !!! on the other hand, phantom was like other type of story that is old and sort of different era story so i dun think they should be compare together.. overall i'm glad that i have the chance to watch this musical since this show is the 2nd last show ad.. i recomment those who has a chance next time to watch this musical and experience how musical is like.. it will be very different from all those concert u go (this i assure u ) hehe .. wanna slp ad la .. nitez ...

pictures..

nah here are the pictures and the above is the only group pic v got taken by a police .. mayb later will upload the video take so much time to upload so i sien ad..

new year countdown

well today is the 1st day of 2009 n yest is the last day of 2008.. i'm quite happy that i went to countdown in bukit bintang.. that night full of crazy ppl thr and we are part of it.. muahahaha yang cher n his frens join us for the countdown and left around 12.15 i'm glad that he can join bcos is was very fun.. after that harri jian hh me cheryl went back to our hotel and realise that v dun hav the key .. sit on the floor of the lobby while waiting for ju to come back.. damn embarrasing .. well other happy stuff was the spray can, every1 spray here spray thr it was so fun... we talk throughout the whole night and me harri n jian fall asleep in the morning for one hr.. after that hh says wanna go back ad so all of us only wake up and went back around 9 n mamak near my hse.. went back drop dead not only bcos of tired but also serious stomachace aiks now still pain dunno wat happen to my stomach .. well wanna sleep now n mayb tmr will post some photo up.. nitex n sweet dreams .. muaks...